Guys, to my mind when i was at that stage when you don't feel your body it's nearly impossible to function, at least it's not a life, it is desperate imitation of it. Since i'm on my meds it brought my body back, but then great depression came and still ruining my life, my vision noticeably better, nearly normal, but still not the same picture as it used to be, i can say that med got me out of it a lot, but i'm battling this dp thing every day in a way of doing my routine, though i still feel suicidal most of the time and don't see any aim in life, just living it. I'm making small achievements, like i've started to learn theory for driving license test and exercising, don't forget that i have a husband and 5 years old son, so i have other responsibilities. I feel so sorry for each of you who couldn't make it a bit out with the meds, cause i do remember how horrible it is. The only thing is that meds show that it is reversible. Another thing is that i didn't want to exercise at all, no interest in anything, but when i started it made me feel more alive and more interested in what i'm doing. I hope i will make myself pass an exam and start drawing as i used to. Maybe it will bring me some joy. If you are not planning to die, push yourself to do little things. It might not heal you but will help to live you through the day, staying in bed makes it even more depressive. By the way i overcame the absence of personality myself, i was asking myself every second -who am i who am i, and then one evening i stopped, and i stopped coming back to this question and slowly i came to the point, when i started to feel myself as myself with no questions.