[LOSTONE]

I may be alone on this, but I am wondering if anyone else feels possessed when they think about the words they want to speak.
I know I am not possessed because I control my actions, but when I think about words I am going to say or when I say words, I feel possessed.
I allways here the words I am going to say before I say them. I here the words in my head like someone else is telling me my thoughts. I have stopped right in the middle of prayer because I felt that my thoughts were intrusive somehow. I have also lost my train of thought when talking to others because of this.
I can't just think or just talk, I have to think about what I think or what I say before I think it or say it.
I feel very bizarre about this, please reply if you can relate.

 

[jake]

Hi LOST, I don't know exactly what you mean, b/cuz to me it reminds me of how self concious I have been in past-- in trying to have conversations. Like the thoughts about me were already bad ones ruminating around--then to speak to someone felt like my bad-ness would show through or something. As if my conversation had to be "put on" for me to even get by. I defiinitely didn't feel "real" or valid. That part has gotten way better over time. Possessed is how I felt and still at times view my Dp..a freaky monster out to get me. Sorry if I was no help relating there. Hang in.

 

[Martinelv]

Sounds like a ripe case of obsessive monitoring to me, common to DP.

I know that when I was severely DR/DP'ed, I'd 'catch' myself listening to my own voice, if you get my drift. It's a very strange experience, as you feel so detatched from your own voice, and in extreme cases it sounds like someone else is using your own mouth. Very bizarre. Just another flavour of torture, and it, like every other cursed trick it has up its sleeve, will fade with the DP.

 

[LOSTONE]

Martinelv you are right it is probably just obsessive monitoring and extreme awareness of my thoughts and speech. Now that I think of it, I also do the same thing when other people talk to me. Sometimes I feel like I have ESP or something.

I think my dp/dr is a very bad case because I got it from doing a lot of drugs and being very scared and anxious at the same time. I think I am still on a bad trip and I have slight hppd, this adds greatly to my disturbed thinking.

Anyone out there thinking of taking drugs, DON'T DO IT.
Unless you have no problem with Satan and all of the demons possessing your body, don't do any drugs. Drugs are bad for you UM K!