Nothing feels real anymore. It's like I'm not there in my body, just moving through the day when it is fast paced at work and trying to distract myself any way i can when I'm not working. I want to have friends to talk to but when someone new/unfamiliar talks to me it's like it gets worse and as if Im unconscious, barely awake in my mind, only my body knows how to act awake and polite/acceptable but i can't make friends and haven't made friends for over a year. i get disoriented when i have to be social with too many people for too long but its not like i am constantly anxious. i am not even always caring what people might think of me. I just am so distant and can't remember how a conversation went later because it's like I was only half there.