[livinginhell333]

i really feel like i don't exist and like a zombie. i really feel this way too. my family says i look like a zombie when i walk and stuff. my friends say i look dead and i feel that way as well. i don't want to hang out with friends the way i am, because this isn't me. i look at every-body around me and i try to think of how it felt to feel that way, but i can't. i just can't imagine it, no matter how hard i try to or no matter how hard i try to feel the way everything else does i can't and it really bothers me. why can't i feel human? why can't i feel life? sometimes i really think being dead is better than living like this. i mean nothing is real, not even myself, how can someone live like this. i feel like my life has been taken away. no matter how much i try to get into life, it still feels gone.

 

[kchendrix]

We know this all too well... It will , it HAS to get better my friend... I too forget what is like to feel alive and well, but it is within us I am sure of it.. It was there before, it will be there again...don't give up

 

[Sojourner]

DP is a symptom. A side-effect of something else.

Janine's message has always been, it seems to me, to ignore it as best you can and focus outward.

But she's also been clear that there's another part to it: find out what you are scared of in reality.

It's so convenient to have crazy thoughts that you are scared of, but there is something that is really inside you that you are scared of and that thing, whatever it is, is the cause of your DP. Ignoring that thing will not work.

Ignoring and focusing outward just lets you barely function.

You continue to feel horrible because you are not busy attending to what is really bothering you. It isn't the DP. The DP is just a symptom.

 

[fingertingle]

I feel the same way. I like to multitask (painting while watching a movie, whatever) so I can hope for at least a break from thinking about it and maybe some light entertainment. Its hard to say death would be better, to discourage such thoughts: afterlife could be the same feeling and for eternity. Nobody really knows. (Well that's what I think)