i really feel like i don't exist and like a zombie. i really feel this way too. my family says i look like a zombie when i walk and stuff. my friends say i look dead and i feel that way as well. i don't want to hang out with friends the way i am, because this isn't me. i look at every-body around me and i try to think of how it felt to feel that way, but i can't. i just can't imagine it, no matter how hard i try to or no matter how hard i try to feel the way everything else does i can't and it really bothers me. why can't i feel human? why can't i feel life? sometimes i really think being dead is better than living like this. i mean nothing is real, not even myself, how can someone live like this. i feel like my life has been taken away. no matter how much i try to get into life, it still feels gone.