[esiuol]

Hi,

I've had dp/dr since about 2015. Since then it got a bit better (less anxiety attacks, more assurance the world is real etc) but now I don't know what's happening to me. Before with dp/dr I had emotional numbness and it scared me, but I got over it. Today I don't know what happened but I suddenly feel empty. It feels different to emotional numbness but I can't really explain it. It's like I feel cold and detached and can't feel good things. Have you ever caught yourself just blankly staring ahead for a few a minutes whilst not thnking or feeling anything? That's how I feel, I feel like a blank stare. It's like nothing affects me now like how I felt before with emotional numbness, only this time it's like I don't care that I don't feel anything. I've gone through so much stuff and my mind and body have just had enough and they're like "okay, that's it, this is the end, no more". I don't know if it could be depression too?

Please any help would be great, I've been through a lot and all I want it to just feel like a normal human again.

 

[MusicaElectronica]

I can relate to this,also the cold feeling inside
do you feel depressed?

 

[esiuol]

I can relate to this,also the cold feeling inside
do you feel depressed?

I don't know if I feel depressed. Ever since I got dp/dr I haven't been able to feel deeply sad, haven't been able to cry properly so feeling sad feels a bit foreign to me at this point. I feel kind of done, like I've gone through so much stuff that my body and mind are just like "okay, that's enough now, not gonna keep trying to get better when something bad happens" I really can't put it into words

 

[esiuol]

Plead anyone help? I've looked around and can't find anything similar, so I'm scared this might just be my personality now. It's like I don't care that I don't care anymore.

 

[dreamedm]

Do you also have a "blank mind?" Like there's always a kind of silence...and along with that, a seemingly complete disconnection from self and others, no motivation or drive, no interest in anything, etc?

 

[esiuol]

Do you also have a "blank mind?" Like there's always a kind of silence...and along with that, a seemingly complete disconnection from self and others, no motivation or drive, no interest in anything, etc?

No I don't have that. It's just like I'm not fully connected with emotions, but I'm still able to get angry and laugh and stuff, so I don't understand. It's like things don't register with me properly and that meanings don't have any actual meaning to me. Something that made sense to me before and had meaning to me doesn't make me react how I used to.

 

[Mattakriptic]

I can relate 100%, I've been in this current state for about 8 months, No words can really describe what it's like but in my case it's like I'm a robot that's run out of batteries, no longer do I not feel emotions, but it's pretty much I can't feel ANYTHING at all, even the simple things like time and 'fresh' when coming out of the shower. I made a post about my case a few months ago and you can check it out if you want, so far I've been put on antidepressants but has done nothing for me, unfortunately :/.