[allison84]

Hi guys
So in the last 48 hours ive felt a huge change in the dp and dr , when i look in the mirror i recognize myself theres only a very super mild block in that connection im looking for .
I haven't felt that connected to my reflection since dp hit me in November 2015 .

Another big change is that chroinc feeling of not rightness or oddness is so so so mild .

And the dr which only ever hit me while anxious or having panic attacks only lasts for half hour max , were before it lasted hours after the anxiety subsided.

So pretty massive changes for me

I feel happy but uncomfortable
Happy because things are more connected
Uncomfortable because i feel not 100% there yet but oh so close .

The one thing that I have donein the last week , is i strated a ocd program and doing so has given me my sense of confidence back .

Ever since starting the ocd program i feel in control and this has lowered the dp dr im very super sure of that.

I'm not getting to over confident because I know what this dr dp is like ..

But it's a change and I think that's vwry positive for me and you guys on here .

Any ways time will tell ..

 

[allison84]

I forgot to write in my post
That since the dp has lowered my anxiety has increased , I had a bad panic attack the other day haven't had a panic attack like that since before the dp started.

I think I had that panic attack because the dp wasnt there hardly its like my protection mechanism is near gone so im gonna feel it full force , the anxiety i mean ..

Honest bring on the panic because i rather that then dr dp any day .....

 

[HopingCat36]

This is awesome! I pray for the day that I can write that I'm feeling 99% better ????

 

[courtneyk]

I'm glad you're feeling better! One day you'll be writing a 100% recovery story. Hope you continue to improve!

 

[Marisa]

That's great! I hope you continue to improve

 

[Grindelwald]

Congrats! I feel 100% back to normal except for lingering existential thoughts.

 

[dope]

Awesome! Congratulations Keep up the good work.

 

[allison84]

Thanks everyone
I'm still doing good and no dr attacks at all today .
I keep looking in the mirror, I can't believe I can see myself and feel a connection.

I have bad anxiety today but no dr which is extremely strange for me .

Time will tell my main thing im having trouble with is im constantly checking weather the dp is there or not , but in timr im sure that will go .

Having ocd type thinking makes it very hard for me and others on here , to not think about dp or dr , so ive got to keep myself busy..

I'll keep you guys updated

 

[allison84]

Hoping cat
How are you going ?

 

[HopingCat36]

Hoping cat
How are you going ?

I'm still in this hell. I can function well but life doesn't make any sense. I am so disconnected from reality and everything and I'm still fighting off those stupid attacks

 

[allison84]

Sorry its so horrid
Are you still taking the meds ?

 

[HopingCat36]

Sorry its so horrid
Are you still taking the meds ?

Im on day 19 of Effexor

 

[allison84]

Update im still doing ok a little bit foggy today but didn't sleep very well last night .
Dp dr very very mild
So doing pretty good

 

[bintuae]

Hi guys
So in the last 48 hours ive felt a huge change in the dp and dr , when i look in the mirror i recognize myself theres only a very super mild block in that connection im looking for .
I haven't felt that connected to my reflection since dp hit me in November 2015 .

Another big change is that chroinc feeling of not rightness or oddness is so so so mild .

And the dr which only ever hit me while anxious or having panic attacks only lasts for half hour max , were before it lasted hours after the anxiety subsided.

So pretty massive changes for me

I feel happy but uncomfortable
Happy because things are more connected
Uncomfortable because i feel not 100% there yet but oh so close .

The one thing that I have donein the last week , is i strated a ocd program and doing so has given me my sense of confidence back .

Ever since starting the ocd program i feel in control and this has lowered the dp dr im very super sure of that.

I'm not getting to over confident because I know what this dr dp is like ..

But it's a change and I think that's vwry positive for me and you guys on here .

Any ways time will tell ..

Do you originally suffer from OCD? I don't have ocd but if the therapy for it works also on dp, I will definitely try it.

 

[allison84]

Hi yes ocd comes first with me
The program im doing is not for dp dr what so ever
It's purely for OCD only
Once ive began to learn to control my ocd better , the dp has lessened alot .
If you work on the main Reason for triggering the dp dr in you , it will help it go away..
Best off luck

 

[dissoziation]

I'm so glad that you're recovering! What do you think has been helping you recover?

 

[allison84]

Thank you ☺
I'm still feeling really good dp is still very low hasn't creeped up .

Ocd triggered the dp dr of for me , i got really mentally unwell from ocd in November 2015 and it hit me out of nowhere.
When i was sick I couldn't look after myself, I was completely incapable of doing anything, the ocd was that severe .

With the ocd i started to have severe panic attacks that would last for hours no joke .
I started on meds back in December 2015 and it helped me manage the servere anxiety and calmed the ocd .

After the anxiety and ocd lowered the dp dr started chroinc .

That experience i went though really traumatized me , i couldn't accept that i got so sick that I no longer could look after myself , it rocked my confidence to the core .

So my struggle with dp dr was me no feeling in control of myself and the absolute fear of relapsing from ocd again .
Ocd has been something that ive suffered from for many years and ive never taken the time to fully understand ocd and how it works .

I've seen many mental health doctors but never really understood ocd fully , ive found out that not alot of mental health doctors really understand ocd themselves.

A few weeks ago I found a program here in Australia for people that have ocd , ive started the program and I'm feeling more in control of ocd instead of ocd controlling me .

One thing I learned is ocd is a chroinc disorder and it is normally life long and knowing this , really scared me because I felt like what I went though back in November 2015 can and will happen again in my future .
By doing the ocd program ive learned tools on dealing with ocd and how my thinking makes it get out of hand , its cognitive behavior therapy/ exposure therapy for OCD .
After really reading and learning all about ocd and what to do correctly , I finally feel like im ok if i have a relapse of ocd in my future , because I have tools to stop ocd before it becomes out off control like it did before .

Me doing that one thing has lifted the dp and dr , it was a feeling off a lack off control that bugged me and I couldn't let my guard down till now .

I still feel slightly odd not 100% me yet but I'm positive I will keep getting better .
The main thing thats changed for me is i look in the mirror and I feel that its me looming back at me and I sense a connection , I find that unbelievable because it's been near 2 years since i could feel a connection in the mirror .

I've had episodes of dr and dp over 17 years but only lasting a few minutes or a week , always triggered from severe anxiety or ocd and panic attacks.

So the dp dr has always been anxiety based for me .

I'm hopeful i continue to keep feeling myself again .

I hope everyone on here beats this to

 

[Grindelwald]

DP very low right now for me as well... but not completely gone. It's just felt like it's been holding on by a thread for a long time now, and some days it feels worse than others.

 

[allison84]

That's great the dp is lower for you to , very good feeling and gives you hope .

Yes it feels like it's just there low in the background , I know its there but not scary and its not upsetting me .
I think we are heading in the right direction

 

[Grindelwald]

That's great the dp is lower for you to , very good feeling and gives you hope .

Yes it feels like it's just there low in the background , I know its there but not scary and its not upsetting me .
I think we are heading in the right direction

It's funny though, when the DP is low a headache always seems to replace it for me. But yes, overall, I'm very hopeful this hell is almost over.