My bf has always told me that i avoid issues that bother me so i totally agree that alot of this could be down to not knowing how to deal with things.....as for the feeling that every thing is in your imagination i suffer from that too. i try think about my family and all that goes through my head is oh my god its all real and my body feels weird as if i am going to have a panic attack....its this that i dont understand because i so want to be here so why the hell would i now be scared of it all???? weird how these symptoms effect us...and how we can all give each other advice but seem to find it hard to follow ourselves :?