I do, absolutely. Last summer the feeling of being trapped was horrendous, it was like I needed to escape my brain I felt very desperate.. I'm still very aware of all the stuff that made me feel trapped but it's not as bad now. What is making you feel trapped?
I was trapped. For 40 years, I thought a cannabis intoxication gone wrong was the reason my life changed drastically. Little did I know, that during my 1st cannabis intoxication, I suffered severe temporal lobe seizures.
I had an unexpected and uninvited guest attend my initial cannabis party. Was it purely circumstantial? Who can say. I was not symptomatic prior to this trauma. My EEG now shows significant pathology in my dominant temporal lobe.
During my initial seizures, I had about 30 epileptic discharges in 3 minutes. Did they damage my temporal lobe? Sure seems that way. I suffered focal temporal lobe seizures for 40 years and I thought they were flashbacks or panic attacks
caused by the severity of my initial trauma. What I think happened, is that the cannabis triggered the seizures, but also moderated them so I did not lose consciousness. I was going through automation type movements,
because I was beside myself with fear and I was bobbing in and out of consciousness like a drowning person gasping for air. I was trapped because I desperately needed intervention, but the cavalry never showed.
The medical community was no help. The mental health community was worthless. I finally solved my own riddle by googling case histories in neurological journals. That's where I found one exactly like mine.
It gave a pass to the medical and mental health community by noting my syndrome was "difficult to diagnose". Well, I had no problem diagnosing myself when I was exposed to that case history.
And the diagnostics I ordered confirmed my self diagnosis of malignant epileptic syndrome comorbid with major depression. And medical science knows no more than they did 40 years ago about how and
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