I feel like I'm getting further away from reality every day. Its so bad right now that I'm dizzy all the time, my memory is totally shot, and the environment around me never sticks in my head. My relationships don't mean anything anymore as I can barely comprehend them. My body and mind feel numb to the outside world and I'm losing my sense of self. Basically I feel like I'm slowly "blacking out" of life. But to where? There's nowhere to go. Unless 20+ doctors are wrong and I'm actually dying or something.