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I feel like I'm getting further away from reality every day. Its so bad right now that I'm dizzy all the time, my memory is totally shot, and the environment around me never sticks in my head. My relationships don't mean anything anymore as I can barely comprehend them. My body and mind feel numb to the outside world and I'm losing my sense of self. Basically I feel like I'm slowly "blacking out" of life. But to where? There's nowhere to go. Unless 20+ doctors are wrong and I'm actually dying or something.
 

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I was like that too

it will get better . the weird thing is that it gets better by enduring it . going through thjs shit and enduring panic and anxiety and realizing that you are still okay is the way to overcome it imo . also at the same time making yourself busy with fun stuff and trying to live normal etc helps
 

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How long have you had this, lulu? How did it begin? What were the circumstances in your life? Do the symptoms fluctuate greatly dependent on mental state? It might be hard to do with your memory being how it is, but in my view these questions and the answers to them are imperative toward determining the likelihood of a physical source vs a psychological one (and no, getting a clean bill of health from your GP does not "prove" that it's psychological. And psychogenic and psychological are not the same thing either). It certainly could be physical, though i think where is right that you are almost certainly not dying. Sure can feel that way though sometimes.

Unfortunately battling this crap is a unique and individual experience for all of us. We (as in all humans) are desperately looking to authority-whether they really have the answers or not-to tell us what to do in times like this. But there is no one-size-fits-all approach to this, or any so-called "mental" illness. Just check out the treatment options section to see how every suggested option out there, corporeal or existential, has some problem swear by it while it makes others much worse. Many of us are just in a survival and palliate stage at this point, just doing things that make the experience a bit more bearable for the present moment.
 

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I was 17 when I got it and I'm 24 now. I got it from excessive weed smoking. I wasn't a stressed out person in the least at the time. Stress definitely effects how bad it gets now, though. I'm in the process of moving and I'm in a new house which is very cluttered so my derealization is intense. I also recently stopped weaning off effexor which I heard can make it worse. I'm sleeping as much as I can because being awake is so scary. That's probably making it a lot worse. I'm not really taking care of myself. This has to be the worst its ever been. I would never kill myself because I'm terrified of death but for the first time in my life this past few weeks I've been wishing I'd just.. die. Get it over with lol. Thank you for all of the replies. I'm seeing a therapist but not enough, I probably need to get on that.
 

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trust me you are not alone . I also have often the same things as you and am in a similar situation since around 4 years . but it got better . what I learned is that 2 things are very important

1. distracting yourself with fun stuff . thinking too much about dp/dr makes it worse

2. sharpening your focus and training your brain to work properly again

you should go to places where you have good memories . for example to a park where you remember a nice come together with friends some years ago . go to a place where you felt good and try to relive that moment and focus on it
 

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Im in the same boat as you in the past few months (again) and i can tell you just give time to time distract yourself relax as much as you can dont sleep too much and you will be fine im learning a new languagr and learning to draw its hard to keep focus on the paper but the time passes fast and you dont focus too much on the bad feelings
 

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Also i feel like nothing hits me like no matter the content of something if it was somethig i used to like a lot it doesnt bring me any emotion do you feel like this too?
 
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