Although I would love to say that I've recovered 90%, I can't and have been frustrated by the poor progress in my recovery since March. These last few months, I too have felt this terrible flatness and it is, by far, my most debilitating symptom. I have felt in the past, even with the DR, a sense of happyness, but now I am almost paralized by the lack of emotion and determination. Involving myself with my friends and indulging in activity even though In don't want to, has been the only recipe to lifting this flatness that haunts me especially strongly in the mornings.
I've gone back to work and it has stabilized me. But only with great effort. Now I need to reactivate my social life, find a girlfriend (how frightening to imagine the sense of rejection by someone close over my condition), and fill my life with life. But at the same time I feel myself on the precipice of horror...the belief of not ever becoming again the person I was. And so I question the effort that I am expending. But what else can I do?
I've gone back to work and it has stabilized me. But only with great effort. Now I need to reactivate my social life, find a girlfriend (how frightening to imagine the sense of rejection by someone close over my condition), and fill my life with life. But at the same time I feel myself on the precipice of horror...the belief of not ever becoming again the person I was. And so I question the effort that I am expending. But what else can I do?
