fed up to the back teeth

Im coming to the end of my tether im fed up nissed off sick and tired of it all.....im fed up of being an alien in this world and pretending that everything is fine......my doctor keeps fobbing me off with the usual when something turns up you ll be the first to know.

I got no one to talk to im stuck in this bloody house I cant go out on my own not even to get my partner a birthday card. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its driving me mad trying to be cheerful....i cant do it anymore.....im not lmao any more im not doing it......im going to be grumpy.....why is it that everyone expects me to be happy all the bloody time????????

I feel like crap