[jill10]

Im coming to the end of my tether im fed up nissed off sick and tired of it all.....im fed up of being an alien in this world and pretending that everything is fine......my doctor keeps fobbing me off with the usual when something turns up you ll be the first to know.

I got no one to talk to im stuck in this bloody house I cant go out on my own not even to get my partner a birthday card. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its driving me mad trying to be cheerful....i cant do it anymore.....im not lmao any more im not doing it......im going to be grumpy.....why is it that everyone expects me to be happy all the bloody time????????

I feel like crap

 

[Television]

Oh christ i can sympathize with that. I have some days where i just get so damn sick of acting all chipper and how-do-you-do that i wanna punch a wall. I did have a period of pretty intense agoraphobia, and all i can honestly say is: the only way to cure it is to go outside. At first it was difficult, and the only way i could do it was to constantly thinking how nice it would be to be home. i mean, i had a week long period where i got out of the house for only a half hour a day. After a while though of doing mind work outs, it starts to become easier when you thought that it never would. One of the double edged aspects of agoraphpbia too is that as you stay inside and dwell, it only gets worse and worse, and whatever symptom you're trying to avoid start to get worse and worse too. Good luck, hope it eases a bit. And i also hope you

 

[terri*]

I feel like crap myself today.

Say it loud and say it proud.

I FEEL LIKE CRAP :!:

 

[boohoo]

Me too Jill, but it's strange how we seem to just carry on. It's like, the more you accept, the easier things become. If I was told 2 years ago that I'd still be in this mess now, I'd have hung myself. But things gradually get easier.

 

[jill10]

Thank you everyone

Yesterday I stood in the room and shouted: I FEEL LIKE CRAP!

everyone just looked at me mouths dropped open then everyone started to laugh.....and so did I.......I dont get to feel like that very often....thank you Terri, thank you all.
Cant say I feel much better but at least I got most of it out of my system

love peace and serenity to you all
jill xx