Fear Of Dementia & Losing All Control Of My Mind

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Imagine

Discussion Starter · Jun 5, 2005

I just can't seem to find the words to how I feel right now - so if I sound like a blabbering mess - I'm Sorry

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I feel that this is in fact the worst my Depersonalization has ever been - I seem to experience each day as the first day of my life in a bad way, like I have forgotten all my past and as the day goes on it feels as if my mind resets itself every so often, thinking of a task I done earlier on in the day seems like complete out and out dream, like it never happened. My eyes feel numbed and my skull feels empty, my limbs feel so limp and heavy I feel like a ragdoll.

I could'nt even enjoy a day out fishing with my Dad on Saturday, everything was so flat and dream-like. This feels so bad that I can't see a recovery to a more bearable state of this.

I really do fear ending up pickled with Dementia and Losing control of my thoughts and actions.

I'm posting this just to describe how I feel, I'am not looking for reasurance of any kind, because words are just the same as objects to me, not real, figment of my imagination.

Take Care.

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Ben

· #5 · Jun 6, 2005

i will keep trying.

Phishy,

I feel for you - I really do. I wish I could say more than stick with it and keep pushing, keep engaging, keep fighting. This is one of those battles where you're are constantly working against it, or working for it.

You'll do fine. No matter where you go - remember, you're always there.

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