I'm bringing out this question again, as the thread about this thingy was disappeared lately. Actually sc has already written a good post of fear and DP, how the fear keeps DP alive... But the most peculiar thing with me is the reason I'm even afraid of getting rid of DR. Next Friday I will have a meeting with a psychiatric nurse and soon after that a meeting with a doctor, as I wish to get into talk therapy in order to get some insights in relation to my fears and DR. Meanwhile I'll write this post though...
Indeed I'd love to know why I am so afraid of things, and why I have had only two fleeting DR-free moments during all these fifteen years derealized within the invisible icy walls (well, I realize nobody else than me may be able to answer these questions, so please be patient with me). I guess I somehow got the fear in control during those two brief real instants, but I'm puzzled why can't I make DR disappear by will power alone, just by focusing outward? It seems nothing I do can make this icy wall melt away, but still I have experienced those two DR-free moments. I wonder why...
I also wonder is it necessary to know the reasons behind the fear to get it disappear, or should I just ignore the reasons AND the fear in my mind and just live my everyday life as usual. Anyway, I'd love to know the reasons behind my fear, the cause of my DR, and that's why I'm looking for talk therapy - but I'm also aware about the possibility of never finding any reasons... :?: Is it crucial to understand the fear on the path toward recovery, or is it possible to recover only by ignoring the fear?
Oh, I'm rambling now........well I guess I'll post this incoherent babble of a post still, though I'm not sure did I make any sense here. I'd just be interested how to deal with the fear behind DR - this is really the question I'd like to find an answer... So please reply, if you have any insights - thanks.
Indeed I'd love to know why I am so afraid of things, and why I have had only two fleeting DR-free moments during all these fifteen years derealized within the invisible icy walls (well, I realize nobody else than me may be able to answer these questions, so please be patient with me). I guess I somehow got the fear in control during those two brief real instants, but I'm puzzled why can't I make DR disappear by will power alone, just by focusing outward? It seems nothing I do can make this icy wall melt away, but still I have experienced those two DR-free moments. I wonder why...
I also wonder is it necessary to know the reasons behind the fear to get it disappear, or should I just ignore the reasons AND the fear in my mind and just live my everyday life as usual. Anyway, I'd love to know the reasons behind my fear, the cause of my DR, and that's why I'm looking for talk therapy - but I'm also aware about the possibility of never finding any reasons... :?: Is it crucial to understand the fear on the path toward recovery, or is it possible to recover only by ignoring the fear?
Oh, I'm rambling now........well I guess I'll post this incoherent babble of a post still, though I'm not sure did I make any sense here. I'd just be interested how to deal with the fear behind DR - this is really the question I'd like to find an answer... So please reply, if you have any insights - thanks.