Fascinated by DP

We all have our own beliefs and feelings. I would like to share with you what I feel about this post. It is a very sad one. I actually stopped for a moment at my computer and sad how truly sad. For me being in this constant state of depersonalization is a very terrifying experience, one which I would not wish on my worst enemy. There are no words in the english language to describe the pain and anguish that we who suffer go through. It is the most painful thing I have ever experienced in my whole life. There is a high price to pay for having this, for me I lost friends and family because I was sick to long. They could wait no longer for me to get well. Well, you know what about me I have to stay I cannot leave it. I lost my sense of self and some who I thought loved me. I know how difficult it is for those who love you to watch what you go through on a daily basis just to survive. I cannot for the life of me understand why anyone would want to have an illness such as this one. It tears at the deepest level of your soul. If I had one wish I would wish that I never had to live with such a horrible illness that leaves not one part of the human mind untouched. Please take the time to really think about wanting to experience this. The people here are loving and caring and very supportive to each other I imagaine this may feel upsetting to know that there are people who want to experience what we so desperately no longer want to suffer with. I am sorry you feel this way regarding dp/dr, hopefully when you read how painful it is for us you will give it some more thought.

gem.

With all due respect to the OP (original poster for those unfamiliar with IFs (Internet Forums, for those unfamiliar with IL (Internet Lingo))), your somehow wanting to be "dp"ed, if indeed that word can be used as a past-tense verb, is highly akin to those mind-boglingly absurd people who prowl the streets of major cities looking to get POZZED.

For those of you unfamiliar with the term, "Pozzed" (and i ardently hope that most of you are), it is a term used by people who want to get infected with the AIDS virus. They are called "bug chasers"...and they are on the prowl for "gift givers", or some such euphemistic insanity. They desperately want to acquire the AIDS virus. One man, being interviewed, stated that he was unable to obtain the virus through repeated sexual intercourse with infected males, and so was resorting to simply injecting the virus intravenously (sp?) into himself, in the hopes of becomming HIV positive, or POZZED. I'm not making this stuff up.

Anyway, feel free to try to get dped...but that's how silly the idea seems to many of us here.

s.
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Joseph, you say you are using this to try to predict events.

Well, before I send the SWAT team to your house STOP all meditation and belief that you can ACTUALLY do this.

This is not logical.

Of course I won't be able to convince you.

But what DP is for the members of this board, oh hell goddamed YES you can acquire it, if you want to keep pursuing the art of magically predict the future.

You will never understand it until the day you regret you ever had it.

I know where you're coming from.

Turn back and stop thinking about magical abilities.

DP is actually a state where it is so uncomfortable that even a bottle of Xanax won't put you to sleep at times, and where you sometimes attempt suicide JUST so you can get to sleep and not have these terrible thoughts and things in your head.

Your fascination with this is kind of like a middle class kid's fascination with street gangs. Or a teenager's fascination with maybe being a stripper or a porn star.

Yeah.

You will end up worse.

Sorry, kid. You HAVe no magic even if you have predicted things. You have nothing on the rest of us in that department. But you can get some fine antipsychotics in the process of believing that you can really do this with your mind.

Go out with your friends and enjoy the beautiful life you have. There are/were people here (at one time myself included) who would have sliced their bodies into pieces while fully awake just to experience a MOMENT of not having DP.

In the most loving and caring and respectful way i can tell you this, get the fuck out of here.

dakotajo said:

I think you guys were successful in chasing this member away. Congratulations! Even tho I agree that dp/anxiety sucks, you have no business telling anybody here to leave just because he has a different opinion then all of yours. This guy has simply decided to embrace his experience rather than fear it, which is probably a good idea if you ever want to break the cycle of anxiety/dp.

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i agree with you in a sense, DJ. I was thinking the same thing actually. But anyone who goes on a mental health board stating that they really want to be like that, is pretty insulting to those of us who suffer from this every day.

Like my AIDS analogy earlier, it would be like me going onto an AIDS board and, while most posts are soaked in sadness and grief, i come on and say, "Hey, where can i get me some?" It's just insulting, even if the person didn't mean to be.

Joseph seems to me like a naive young man who just wants to experience things in life, and i don't think he meant any harm by it. Nor do i think it's good to chase people off this site just for having a different opinion than the majority. But for the benefit of ALL concerned, including young joseph...it's best he be told quite curtly, that this isn't something you can dabble around with, and that most members aren't very comfortable with "dp-tourists" (my coinage, by the way). With the reception he got here, he'll probably go out and live a full and happy life.

s.