[Grindelwald]

I have my sense of self back and I feel pretty confident that I've beaten this thing, but I still feel like I'm "on edge" a little bit, as if my mind is kind of in a fragile, on-alert state that any little thing could send me back into the DP hell. But I think I'm going to get out of this. Anyway, all I can say is a big "Fuck you" to this horrible disorder.

Fuck you DP.

 

[Grindelwald]

You will get out of this, and when you do it'll be a big middle finger to this disorder. When you beat it once, you know you're stronger than it. Even if it comes back, YOU WILL BEAT IT AGAIN.

Being completely DP-free for the first 21 and a half years made it possible to recover, I think. I worry for the people who get DP when they're like 8 or 9. I don't know how that happens.

 

[Surfingisfun001]

Yeah FUCK you DP

 

[Grindelwald]

I still don't feel quite right. I just can't put my finger on it. I don't have hyperawareness but I still have existential thoughts. Really wish this shit would go away.

 

[Grindelwald]

Yeah, so, I'm not cured. I'm going to stop pretending I know how "back to normal" I am because I really don't know. All I know is that I'm getting better. My worst days now are better than my best days a month ago.

 

[derrrr]

Sounds like progress. Once you get to the point where you experience periods during the day where you don't even consider the dp/dr ("back to normal"), then you'll probably regain your sense of normalcy completely soon enough.

 

[Grindelwald]

Mentally I've been feeling MUCH better the last few days but I have been having headaches/migraines constantly. I think I prefer this to the mental hell of DP.

 

[Grindelwald]

Glad to hear you've been feeling better! Hopefully your headaches will subside soon!

Thanks. I still have a fear of death, like so many on here.