When I wake up I stay in the bed for like an hour or so, I dont want to get up and face the day.
When I do get up, its like im having a massive hangover. I cant even walk straight.
I brush my teeth like a robot, I dont really understand doing it, its just routine and something I have ofc learned to do every Morning. After that I drag myself on the sofa and sit in there till evening cos im almost too tired to move and function.
If I have to do something, food, go to the groceries, clean up or wash the dishes, it now is almost impossible. Even my eyes are only half open.
Its a stuggle just to stay awake. Even wrapping christmas presents feels so difficult now, and christmas gives me so much stress and anxiety when I have to go home and face all my relatives and prepare foods and aaaarggggggghhh!
With this and the difficulties with speaking&thinking I have been so stressed lately about disorganized schizo. Ofc it can be just severe depression, but the signs are almost too clear.
Ofc I dont wish this to anyone, but somehow it would be a relief to know that someone has it this bad too!