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I am in extreme dp/dr states the past two weeks. I am almost completely confined to bed/house. Its really frightening because when I sleep I dream very vividly. I dream of doing things "like I used to"... literally. Then I wake and it feels more like a dream than when I was asleep. What worries me is that there is nothing saying i am wrong.

My family is here for me, but has no clue what to do. Send me away to some long term depression/anxiety clinic? they are always ready to listen, but all i have to say are things they cant grasp. (and have heard 10000 times before)

all i can do is read when im awake. asimov, arthur c clarke, card, bear. i read books in two sittings. i do work in "Mind Over Mood", the CBT workbook...some of you may know it. All it does is get me focused on pre-dp/dr blake. and give my subconscious fodder for more dream/nightmares.

i am having a lot of trouble coming to terms with my attempt at taking my own life. (i had 100% given up, it was not a "cry for help" situation ) its been two weeks since, and i thought the experience would give me some insight, some catalyst, but nothing but scars and a worried-as-f*** family. no catharsis. ive somehow sank deeper within this dream.

this is turning out to be more like a journal entry than a legit post. im sorry. thanks for listening board.

blake
 

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I am in extreme dp/dr states the past two weeks. I am almost completely confined to bed/house. Its really frightening because when I sleep I dream very vividly. I dream of doing things "like I used to"... literally. Then I wake and it feels more like a dream than when I was asleep. What worries me is that there is nothing saying i am wrong.

My family is here for me, but has no clue what to do. Send me away to some long term depression/anxiety clinic? they are always ready to listen, but all i have to say are things they cant grasp. (and have heard 10000 times before)

all i can do is read when im awake. asimov, arthur c clarke, card, bear. i read books in two sittings. i do work in "Mind Over Mood", the CBT workbook...some of you may know it. All it does is get me focused on pre-dp/dr blake. and give my subconscious fodder for more dream/nightmares.

i am having a lot of trouble coming to terms with my attempt at taking my own life. (i had 100% given up, it was not a "cry for help" situation ) its been two weeks since, and i thought the experience would give me some insight, some catalyst, but nothing but scars and a worried-as-f*** family. no catharsis. ive somehow sank deeper within this dream.

this is turning out to be more like a journal entry than a legit post. im sorry. thanks for listening board.

blake
 
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