I don't have the day to day thought pattern I wish I had, being caught up in my head all of the time, but when I make concerted efforts to not think that way, I'm left feeling blank. I think that's a step up from constantly overanalyzing, thinking existentially, and panicking, it's just not all the way where we want to be. It's also very weird to feel like you have no thoughts, so I get that concern, but I'm trying to get beyond the concern, since that's probably a big chunk of why we're here in the first place. Just keep working, and asking yourself to think about stuff unrelated to you, at least that's what I'm doing. I see myself as pretty weak minded, so when I'm in the shower or doing nothing, the time when my mind usually slips into nothingness and potentially stupid thoughts about my DP/DR, I use this time to think about what I've actually been doing lately. I think about the baseball game I watched the other night, and what happened and what it means for my team, same with football and basketball. I think about my friends, just simple stuff about the last time I saw them and what they do for work and who they know. It seems like for me it's all about this weak-mindedness and inability to cope that sends me to this place, and it seems inherently self-centered, so breaking away from that can lead to an actual change in behavior, I think. At first it felt really weird for me to force myself to think about these things, but a month later, it seems a little more natural, and I find myself thinking about these things a bit more even when I'm not asking myself to.
