[peacedove]

Ok so I'm thinking since this first happened when I was thinking about God and existance... maybe this DP isn't trying to cover up any past trauma in my life (the coping mechanism theory). Maybe we just have a higher awareness than everyone else. I've given this some thought before and I know a lot of you on this board have also.

So my question is... how do we become less aware? Maybe I cared where God came from when I was six, but I don't care anymore. Why can't I just be satisfied that he's just there like everyone else. Or that he's not there and we're just here through evolution or whatever.

Why does the fact that there was a beginning terrify me? And I can't understand why it doesn't terrify everyone else on earth. I don't think DP is a coping mechanism I think it's an inability to cope. Everyone else was born with their minds equipped to block out this existential angst and we were left to deal with it.

Maybe I'm not making sense, maybe you guys have no idea what I'm talking about cuz infinity doesn't scare you and your DP is caused by something else.

 

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[peacedove]

"i can almost guarantee that the existential angst is a phase...cause you wont fear existence your whole life. You will just get tired of it, or content with not knowing, thats the beauty of it. godspeed."

I'm sorry but I have a hard time believing this... I am going on 18 yrs with this. Since I was six... but it was episodic in the very very beginning.
I've tried to accept it, but I guess I don't know how. I try to say ok I feel like I'm on another planet, I feel like I'm shifting inbetween realities, but it's ok I'm gonna be just fine. I accept that I don't recognize myself, it's ok, I will survive. But it just doesn't seem to get me anywhere... so I guess I'm not accepting cuz I expect it to bring me peace. Whatever, I'm confusing myself even more.

 

[widescreened]

same here.ive had it since i was around 8.fear of damnation was my utter fixation and i based my whole life around avoiding this.i dont blame my religion,it would have happened in any culture.i no longer blame myself,as i now realize how useless this is.read all about different religions and try to pick out the most comforting aspects of them.infinity is nohing to be afraid of.if life were finite,we would make greater issue out of that.its an infinity of fear that is botherng you.thats all i can say for advice,accept and be thankful,even if you feel angry with the world as it is this anger and unforgiveness that feeds our angst.

 

[Scattered]

Why is there something instead of nothing?

I don't think this is a question anyone can answer unless you rely on unscientific religious arguments. I feel like DP can sometimes be a simple awareness of the fragmentary nature of reality. There is no objective meaning in reality and when a person realizes that the world is based upon meanings created solely by people, they start to dissassociate mentally. This could happen during trauma, or just a very revealing experience about the nature of reality. We realize that the roles we play are just that, roles; that our identities are based on stories that we create. When conflicting information comes into contact with us, those stories break down and we are left either to create new ones, or to be isolated, disconnected, DPed.

People expect lasting meaning, enduring values, sentiments, and principles. But there are none. There is chaos overlaid with the illusion of order. I don't know of any other way to react than how I am. I'm flawed, but this seems like a perfectly rational reaction to a world that is not as solid as I once thought. I'm here for no reason, pure chance, and my meaning is breaking down. Its human to expect answers.

 

[Martinelv]

We are here because we are. There is no 'why'. There is no great galactic purpose. We just 'are'. Why is that so difficult for people to accept? The only reason it bothers us is because we ask the question. If there was 'nothing', we wouldn't be here to ask the question.

 

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[Guest]

Hey Gang...

What if "we" really have transended the "normal" reality and see things in a more...dare I say ENLIGHTENED way??? I know that for myself, the world I used to know before DP is all but gone. My reality is so much more now a world of thought and timelessness, that is scares some people, but yet intrigues others...including myself. Just a thought.

Tony

 

[Scattered]

I don't view this as spiritual transcendence. Nothing has "happened". There aren't doorways that have been opened into other universes, links to god or truth or anything else. Its just a different frame of mind. Its not a spiritual epiphany, just an ordinary realization. Its just that this ordinary realization has vast implications. When you realize that things contain less "weight" than you once did, everything becomes light, airy,...reality is something that wafts through the air like rings of dissipating smoke rather than the solid pillars of objectivity we once thought it was.

I'm not a true nihilist. If I was a nihilist I wouldn't be searching for a deeper answer and I wouldn't maintain the shred of hope that I cling to. I believe that if there truely is nothing at the end of this journey, then all is for naught. However, I refuse to give up looking even if it does seem somewhat useless.

Some people can accept that we just "are" for no reason and go on living as if their life means something. I'm unable to do that. Either there is a reason or there isn't one. And if there isnt one then any pleasure I have in the meantime is meaningless, pointless, and as far as I'm concerned we're all fucked. The butt of a joke with no author.