[shadowness]

i hate the way things look!

everything looks so flat...lifeless and just like i have made everything up!

my eyes ache all the time and feel very heavy and odd...

my head feels so light and my body just feels like it is paper thin...like it is nothing...

i just feel like i am watching life go by...

but i hardly think about dp/dr anymore...

i work as much as i can everyday...

i keep my mind occupied all the time and really really try to forget all this and to forget about all the symptoms but it just is not working!

i cannot focus anymore outward...i am focusing as outward as possible!

i cannot take meds as i feel far worse on them...

what else can i do?

suppose time is just my healer...

i just do not know what i want in life anymore as everything i do feels so pointless and unreal...

i am trying...i am REALLY trying though...

sorry to vent but just needed to say something somewhere...

take care people and thank you for reading...any comments will be appreciated.

 

[dreamcatcher]

shadow.....you are doing everything you can.....your busy....as you say hardly thinking of the dp.....you are half way there.....one day you'll wake up and life will feel great again.....i know what you mean by everything looking flat....we really need to try to stop focusing on it...i no its hard and your fighting real hard...take one day at a time

 

[Guest]

just chill out, it takes time, i can see you are analyzing everyday just think happy thoughts when things get bad, dont let it grab hold of you. Your on your way, dont fall down and get stuck on the way there. Time will heal you