Do any of you get these feelings ? I get these feelings of euphoria when im listening to music, where i go into a state of great creativity, everything in my room is beautiful and the colors stand out and everything is beautiful it lasts for about 20 mins, where i want to go out and explore the world. Other thoughts i get is that since i have this disorder i should be using it to my advantage instead of sitting here thinking about wen its gonna go away and why this has happened to me, instead i should be giving my life, a sort of self sacrifice, sacrifice everything for the greater purpose for glory and having an impact on the world. You cant stop a self sacrificial body from commiting harm. DP has had an impact on my life, its like being in one state of mind for 16 years and suddenly it getting stomped on and a different state of mind overcomes you. I am trying to enlighten my spirit, and i beleive this is going to make me or break me. We are all special in this room, some of us dont know it, others always thought about it in the back of the mind. It is up to us to take the step to become who we were meant to be and not stay in this nuetral state of mind. Feel my emotions, swallow them.