Year ago.. In one moment i thought this gonna get better. But now things have just get worse. Im been for so long in state of nothigness and hopelessness. It seems not to change. My head is again full of everything and i have these same problmes to solve. This feels endless. And never ending thing. Things happens same than year ago but im not so in it anymore. Because im so aware how things are and every little thing. I dont believe anymore that this all have to happen. How every year can be like this. If i even think aboit getting back to life it feels to be so far away. Like i never gonna go there. And now i need to live like this my whole life. Just repeating this suffer. Im never able to go better. Im dead but some part of me lives my past. It just happens. And im just so hopeles.. Can this be a curse?