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I relate 100 procent to this guy...


Does anyone has this also? I am at the point of losing everything.
No feelings
No memory
Not visualizing anything
No thoughts
No words in social occasions.
Disconnected from everything

Anyone... Please :(
 

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yeap i have this aswell my friend. this guy in the video was actually a poster on these forums. sadly he took his own life :(
 

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I had this kind of brainfog intermittently for years, but it's quite rare now.

As it relates directly to DP/DR, I think when you are displaced from or outside yourself, feeling disconnected from the world, only a small fragment of yourself is actually engaged with reality. The conscious part of you is somehow compartmentalized from the rest of you as a passive observer, so nothing (memory retrieval, evocation of feelings, executive function, visualization, etc.) works very efficiently.

When you have a strong sense of identity, and you are relatively unconflicted in purpose and values, and actively engaged in fulfilling them, then all your faculties are tightly integrated and function together harmoniously.

On top of this, it's hard to think clearly when you're anxious, and the anxiety (particularly panic attacks) will burn away all your mental energy faster than anything and fry your nerves, so your brain is constantly exhausted and running in a low energy state. Unresolved feelings that don't rise to the level of awareness could also be wreaking havoc.

Visualization doesn't work well when you're not in a relaxed state, and not at all when in a state of hypervigilance for some intangible threat. I think you would find visualization effortless if you could get into an alpha state.

The fear that there is something wrong can perpetuate this, so it's important to realize that there's almost certainly nothing wrong with you.

DP/DR can also be pretty traumatizing, and may trigger depression, both of which could exacerbate these symptoms even after DP/DR passes. Other unrelated causes are of course possible, such as diet, or other health issues.

Learn to notice when this brainfog lifts, even just a little, and do more of whatever you were doing. Exercise all dimensions of your physical, emotional, social, creative, spiritual and intellectual self at every opportunity! You'll soon find your way out of the fog.

When the brainfog passes, your faculties might not be as sharp they were, having rusted from disuse. When it starts to improve, keep going. To stay sharp and to feel fully alive we need to stay active and connected.

For relaxation and visualization, here's some Bob Ross:


Does anyone has this also? I am at the point of losing everything.
No feelings
No memory
Not visualizing anything
No thoughts
No words in social occasions.
Disconnected from everything

Anyone... Please :(
 

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The hardest part is that I don't feel anxiety as well. I can't do normal things anymore.. When I excersise I don't feel relieved. I can't follow movies etc. I didn't mindfulness but that doesn't work.in this state of mind. I can't even remember how to cook. Or how to do that.. I can sleep for 1 hour and feel no tiredness. Nothing. As if I am in coma. And on top.of this my mind is fucking w me. When I have a thought it says nothing is wrong.. But it is.... Ugh it's not a very good story maby chaotic but yeah.. I'm. Glad I dont have to speak cuz I can't explain this in words...
 

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You explained it pretty clearly, and I can fill in the blanks from my experience.

Does anything make it better or worse?

You can't directly control your thoughts and feelings (or lack thereof), so accept it for now and don't frustrate yourself by thinking you should be able to.

Your actions are always under your control. There's nothing that can stop you from deciding to do something and physically doing it.

If it's mostly habit that's driving you at the moment, then use habits to your advantage by creating a strict routine. This will limit the feeling of chaos.

Keep up the discipline: do what you know you should do, even (especially) when you don't feel like it or don't care.

You need to do whatever you can to reconnect, little by little.

Even when it doesn't seem to be having any positive effect, keep hammering away at the wall inside you.

You'll have breakthroughs sooner or later.

Are you really sleeping so little, or is the insomnia just occasional? Less than an average 6 hours a night over weeks is going to make you feel like you're in a coma. If you're never tired, push yourself harder when you exercise!

Mindfulness didn't work for me either. Keep looking for what works!

The hardest part is that I don't feel anxiety as well. I can't do normal things anymore.. When I excersise I don't feel relieved. I can't follow movies etc. I didn't mindfulness but that doesn't work.in this state of mind. I can't even remember how to cook. Or how to do that.. I can sleep for 1 hour and feel no tiredness. Nothing. As if I am in coma. And on top.of this my mind is fucking w me. When I have a thought it says nothing is wrong.. But it is.... Ugh it's not a very good story maby chaotic but yeah.. I'm. Glad I dont have to speak cuz I can't explain this in words...
 
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