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Emptiness and death

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I haven't posted a new topic for such a long time but I had the urge this evening.

My level of anxiety has diminished somewhat but I'm having feelings of emptiness and apathy. Also it seems like I'm waiting for something to happen to finally make me realise that all this DP/DR is over. And my mind is constantly ruminating about the finality of death and the fact that it's awaiting all of us. And I keep thinking of all the people that were once part of my life that have now passed.

I'm amazed that so few people think about death. Here I am a conscious being and then nothing...incomprehensible nothing. No me, you, family, friends, thoughts, feelings, reality.....nothing. When I think of this stuff everything begins to lose all meaning. I wouldn't say I'm depressed, it's more a feeling of melancholy. I seem to be good at blocking my mind from thinking about it but that might be making these feelings worse. But what choice do I have. If I think about death, trying to understand it, it only leads to fear, sadness and unfortunately an increased level of DP.

I'm almost thinking of making myself believe in god and a heaven to alleviate this mood but I would only be lying to myself. Just wondering if anyone has had similar feelings?
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Me too bigtime.Since I was a child,I used to stay awake all night worrying about death,the afterlife,heaven and hell,to such an extent that I thought about nothing else and my motivation to do things was based on avoiding damnation.I went thru a prriod of blaming my catholic upbringing for this,but have since realized that all religious beliefs have this theme,so I would have focused on it eventually.Now I have an a la carte attitude to religion:heaven and hell are what we make of the here and now rather than leaving it conveniently over the horizon.As for the fear of death,its going to happen so forget about it.Find a belief system that accommodates reincarnation so as you can get comfort in the wheel of life rather than black and white belief systems.
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