Milan - ask yourself a question. Why are you torturing yourself? Because that is exactly what you are doing. Consuming yourself with thoughts of death. Thinking that you must answer this question to give you peace. That is question is the most important thing in your life, and question that just has to be answered. Let me tell you friend, these questions don't have answers, or do all the other cosmic questions that haunt us during DR/DP/. And once you think you've come to so conclusion to this matter, do you think that your obsessions are going to let you rest?
In fact - and this is very important, and I don't know whether Janine will back me up with this - when my DR/DP faded, my obsessions (and I've had them all) increased ! It was almost like the obsession decided the suckle the dying DR/DP, and whoosh, back it came. Do you see how self-defeating this is? Bullshit. I'm not being hard on you mate, because I like you, but you are just obsessing. Obsessing, obsessing obsessing.
Don't let people encourage you that it's normal to constantly obsess about death or whatever, because it' not. Ask yourself, do you want to be happy? Even if happyness involves ignorance? I'll drink to that.
Sorry mate - not getting at you. Had a very depressive weekend and i am sick and tired of mental illness. Sick to the stomach, and as long as I'm breathing I'll do my best to stop people torturting themselves in this way.
In fact - and this is very important, and I don't know whether Janine will back me up with this - when my DR/DP faded, my obsessions (and I've had them all) increased ! It was almost like the obsession decided the suckle the dying DR/DP, and whoosh, back it came. Do you see how self-defeating this is? Bullshit. I'm not being hard on you mate, because I like you, but you are just obsessing. Obsessing, obsessing obsessing.
Don't let people encourage you that it's normal to constantly obsess about death or whatever, because it' not. Ask yourself, do you want to be happy? Even if happyness involves ignorance? I'll drink to that.
Why are you amazed? And what is there to be afraid of incomprehensible nothing? Nothing at all! Less tham nothing! It's like being constantly terrified about a dreamless sleep. (I know what you're going to say - 'Yeah, but at least we know we'll wake up!!!!) What's the points of being afraid? You seem to think it's a natural to obsess about death to the point that it interferes with your life. I do understand, however, the fear of not living, not being alive, which is entirely different from death. Friends, family, loves, hopes, you don't want to lose them. So unless you're religious, I'd say the best bet is to make the most of them while you're alive. For christs sake, stop obsessing about death......live man!!! LIVE !!! A certain fear of death is natural, but not to this extent.
Sorry mate - not getting at you. Had a very depressive weekend and i am sick and tired of mental illness. Sick to the stomach, and as long as I'm breathing I'll do my best to stop people torturting themselves in this way.
