i noticed going out with my friends today how calm i am about everything. it's like my emotions have been flattened out by a steam roller. i feel nothing. not a grain of excitement or anything. my conversations lack because i just don't really care about talking, would just rather listen. mostly i just prefer being alone, although i would love to be around people and talk if i could just enjoy it. i have noticed too i only feel more emotions being high or drunk, which i try to avoid often. i feel like i'm on the onset of schizophrenia or some sort of psychosis, ONCE AGAIN. but i'm having no delusions or hallucinations of any sort, just feel flattened by everything. how am i supposed to lead a normal life if i can't even feel anything?