[stickdude]

i noticed going out with my friends today how calm i am about everything. it's like my emotions have been flattened out by a steam roller. i feel nothing. not a grain of excitement or anything. my conversations lack because i just don't really care about talking, would just rather listen. mostly i just prefer being alone, although i would love to be around people and talk if i could just enjoy it. i have noticed too i only feel more emotions being high or drunk, which i try to avoid often. i feel like i'm on the onset of schizophrenia or some sort of psychosis, ONCE AGAIN. but i'm having no delusions or hallucinations of any sort, just feel flattened by everything. how am i supposed to lead a normal life if i can't even feel anything?

 

[SillyPutty]

How long have you felt this way and are you on any meds?

I used to feel this way too and it really scared me. I felt like I couldn't even care if someone I know died, isn't that horrible!!? And I deffinately know what you mean about not wanting to talk. It seemed like nothing was really as important as what I goinf thru, I didn't care about anything else except how I was feeling and it felt so wierd when I would talk and I would keep thinking "what am I doing, is that me talking, my voice sounds so foriegn".

Keep talking even if it feels wierd,it WILL GO AWAY!!!!!!!!PROMISE.

 

[Guest]

Yeah i notice that too. Its hard for me to get 'hyped up' about things. But i don't think you've shizophrenia stickdude. You feeling worried about it now is evidence that you still have emotion.

 

[Milan]

I get long stints of flattened emotions. I think it is due to the anxiety smothering all other emotions. Fatigue is another thing that mutes my emotions. A full day at work where you try to not pay attention to your symptoms drains me. By the time I get home I feel flat and that makes my frustrated when trying to spend time with the family. I don't think your shizophrenic.