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I've personally had issues with emotions I'm very numb most the time and occasionally sad or scared....

Does anyone else feel emotions in dreams but when you awake feel nothing and get scared because you feel like maybe your dreams are reality verses your actual reality??

Sometimes I feel this is a night mare I can't wake up from.....
 

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Of course, the brain can somehow simulate emotions, because while you're dreaming whatever's happening in the dream can make you feel emotional. If you suddenly wake up, you may still feel the emotion you was just feeling.

Edit, I re-read your post.

No one understands even why we dream, but your brain can be very stupid in dreams and make mistakes like your hand warping or whatever, let alone if your brain can simulate a phone and all its crazy functions.

You're awake, trust me.
 

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Thank you.I just feel it's getting worse I've been taking a decongestant for a couple days due to being sick and about an hour after taking it I feel very odd.

I already feel off all the time but this is different. I still know where I'm at but I feel very numb even more numb then before and it seems when I take the decongestant I have very intense dreams.
I'm starting to think the meds are making the dpdr worse.

I woke up today and just felt dead like I'm no longer here at all.I usually remind myself constantly of where I'm at because I have a fear of forgetting.well today I felt like I was in my room which I am but I've always called it my spouses room because it's his house and I recently moved back in.

I started feeling like it's my room but I have such a fear of going crazy that I question myself in how I could be calling this my room. I know it sounds odd but if I could explain the physical feeling maybe it would make more sense.

I at times have a hard time like today understanding that I'm with my spouse I know their name and how long we've been together and where we live but this has recently become odd to me.

I dreamt a vivid dream last night that we separated in the dream. When I woke up I was confused I knew who they were and talked to them but I felt like he is a stranger.

I started feeling better mentally and walked around the house but I became super congested again and took the decongestant.

Here we are again I've taken the decongestant and I feel relaxed but feel like I'm unaware of anything else.I know physically where I'm at.I know who I'm with but looking around feels odd.

I'm also never relaxed so I've also thought maybe being relaxed throws me off because I literally am always on high alert until I started taking the decongestant which is daytime relief but for some reason relaxes me and puts me to sleep. I'm also on no other meds and haven't been on anything in months I don't even take Ibuprofen.

Could the medicine be making this happen??
 

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Hey,

When I was worse I also had this happen to me, where in the dreams I would feel completely normal only to be flooded with DPDR obsessive thinking when I'd wake up.

I believe this happens because while dreaming the obsessive thoughts don't impede your thinking, making you feel and behave normally (or as normally as dreams get). I think this is also an indication, along with how much you post here, that for you obsessive tendencies are a big issue and seem to be keeping you stuck in the DPDR cycle. ERP is mostly suggested for this, meaning to actively expose yourself to your obsessions (in this case for example your fear of going crazy) to slowly stop worrying about it.

On the decongestant, if you are getting these side effects maybe it would be a good idea to see a doctor. Also, they can be addictive so it's best not to use them for more than five days in a row, but again listen to the doctors on this one.
 

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Ive always had issues with obsessive thinking it having to be in control of everything even before dpdr.

I was a heavy drinker for a long time and the dpdr started coming on shortly after stopping my drinking habits and of course more than ever my obsessional thinking worsened.
I have dealt with alot of life changes over the last year and it's like now that things are calming down it's worse I'm always in my thoughts.im not quite sure how to stop them ive invested almost 6 months of my life being obsessed with having a mental illness on top of other things that have happened.
I've had a family member as well as a friends family member go into a state of psychosis and it terrified me.Ive had health anxiety for years but this has hit an extreme.
My mother in law had a heart attach and a week later I stopped eating alot of foods i use to love I would monitor my heart constantly to make sure I didn't do to much to hurt my health.
I started losing weight so I knew my heart was healthy.ive lost 100 pounds in a matter of 6 months.
Soon after my mother in law was good and home o felt some relief but she has memory issues due to the cardiac arrest and for months now I've believed I'm gonna have memory issues.then my brother in law became ill and passed of cancer.
So my fear of illness and death struck again.before he passed he had trouble walking and fell on more than one occasion.
I literally stopped going outside in fear that I would collapse.he passed in October and I still think what if I have cancer what if my legs stop working what if I forget or go insane like my family member.
Everyone is okay other than my brother in law passing but now I'm obsessed with the thought that I'm gonna have all these medical problems even though I've been to the hospital a dozen times and I'm at a near perfect weight excellent blood work perfect vision blood pressure is amazing especially being somebody with anxiety.

I know that's alot I'm actually glad to have read your response and appreciate that you responded.im in therapy and I'm on the part where I have to learn or try to understand why I have these irrational fears and I didn't think about it until now.this whole time I thought I haven't obsessed or I sleep so my mind is resting I never put together how much I freak out about my health all day everyday and how exhausting it's been for months until actually writting it out.

Thank you for that.
 

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Hey,

Glad I could be of help. Don't forget you CAN and WILL get better.

Obsessive thoughts on physical and mental illness is something I've also had for the last 10 years, and DPDR is something very scary it latches onto very strongly.

The big issue is that it's hard to know when and if the hypochondria is causing (faking) the DPDR or opposite, especially further in recovery. The trick is eventually to stop caring either way, since both have very similar and effective treatment options.

Good luck and take care of yourself in these difficult times!
 

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I definently feel the same way when it comes to feeling more in dreams versus real life. Dont know why, guess its cause theres no filter on while dreaming for some reason. I hate it, i wanna feel more passionate and emotional in real life...
 
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