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Good morning I know none of you guys are doctors but I just wondered if anybody has the same issues. So I'm mostly recovered from my DR but it left me with some nasty residual stuff. Some things wax and wane depending on how high my anxiety is. Just a bit of background info. My DR started in 2018 after a huge panic attack (not weed induced. I have a history of panic attacks) I was driving and suddenly became too aware of my own body. After that attack I was okay. I had another huge one the following week and that's what started the DR. It took about a year for me too feel better but I stopped the existential questioning in about 2 months and it took about a month to not be agoraphobic.
One question I have for you all is what has DR left you with?? The aftermath of DR has plagued me with social anxiety which is a lot better. I'm at least functional. I also can't say that I really have DR anymore and it's in fact quite the opposite. The hyperawareness hits me like a ton of bricks, which triggers my anxiety and almost causes a panic attack. The weird thing is this only happens in the car or when I'm not a home. I never have these episodes at home. I have learned to control them with deep breathing & other grounding techniques... so I might still feel jittery but at least it doesn't "crest" and leave me wiped out. DR has also left me with wonky vision that's somehow only aggravated when I drive and i hate it because it makes me think something is wrong and if I don't push myself hard enough I try to flee to safety. This logic is crazy because I end up remembering that if something was going to happen to me then running/driving back home won't stop it from happening. DR has also left me with hypochondria smh. I know some of you might suffer from and manage seizures and what not and this has been my current obsession. Only because I have been trying to make sense of the episodes but nothing fits me. I'm still going to have some stuff checked out just in case but I don't want to alarm my family. I also have to tell myself to stop WebMDing every damn thing. I'm sorry y'all but I'm just confused and I deal with a low to moderate level of anxiety that runs in the background of my life daily and I'm exhausted. Folks in my life are open to listen no doubt but they just don't understand because they've never been through it. DR has just changed my literal perception of everything and I can't believe it happened to me
 

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Yeah I never really had DP even though I think it overlapped with DR but i definitely felt DR very strongly for months. It was agonizing. I still get anxious cause its still lurking in the shadows and it’s almost like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop daily but it never does. I’m glad you’re feeling better. Further proof that it does get better and you won’t be stuck in a hazy stupor forever.
 
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