I know what you're thinking. "Ugh. Another blog post about the Coronavirus." It's okay, I've been reacting like that lately too. However, I feel like DPDR is a largely overlooked mental disorder and I want to share my experiences with this community.
So. My "Coronacation" hasn't been the most exciting time, but as far as I can tell, everyone else is far more bored than me. I tend to be more of an introvert anyway, so being alone, holed up in my room while I play video games or watch Youtube videos come pretty naturally to me. I've noticed that all of my friends from school are talking and posting about how much they miss everyone and how much they hope the school closures end soon, but I can't quite relate to that.
Living with DPDR means you don't really feel much of a connection with the people in your life and I've been feeling that symptom really bad lately. I just don't miss anyone except my girlfriend. It's hard to feel a connection with people you don't have much in common with, and I find that I really only have very much in common with her.
The closures and social distancing mean that I haven't seen her for a while and I won't get to see her a while more, as we both have pretty terrible immune systems. I miss her. I don't miss the people from school who miss me. But it's okay, I'll probably see them again before graduation, and if not then, probably before I go to college in September. What a crazy time to be a senior in high school, right? And mental issues on top of that to make matters worse!
All that being said, I'm doing quite well. I'm happier now than I've been in a while, mostly thanks to my girlfriend and my smaller course load this semester. I'm in a good place and I think I've found a good community.
