[Sunnyzara]

Hi I am Sarah 33

I had DPDR before when I was younger but didn't know what it was and eventually snapped out of it. Had some very small moments here and there... So I KNOW i can recover because I did it before even though i dont know how as I was very young.

I have been in some sort of crisis after my partner of 10 years broke up with me 2 months ago and turned my life upside down.

The DPDR has since been 24/7 and i just can't seem to ignore it. I have a lot of stress and anxiety and the moment which will continue for some time as me and my ex need to sort everything out with selling our house and I just got a new apartment which i need to take care of.

I am living in the Netherlands since 13 years and my parents live in Germany... I lost my save space with my ex partner and don't know where I belong... I will stay in the Netherlands as i have my job there and my friends and hobbys.

My symptoms are

Dont feel real
Dont feel attached to my body
Can't concentrate
Cant remember things without having to think really hard
Cant recognize myself in the mirror or in pictures
Time conception really out of place
Questioning if thigs are even real (though i know they must be)
Feeling like inna dream
Dont feel like talking as I don't know what to say

I have to go back to the Netherlands and to my job on the 9th of January and i really don't know how to it... I feel so out of it and can't handle it.

I am starting therapy on the 3rd and will also consider taking AD to control my anxiety as I hope this is the major trigger for my DPDR

Hoping to snap out of it soon as I did before...
Trying not to think about it too much but if you feel it 24/7 its hard...

 

[Diego]

Hi I am Sarah 33

I had DPDR before when I was younger but didn't know what it was and eventually snapped out of it. Had some very small moments here and there... So I KNOW i can recover because I did it before even though i dont know how as I was very young.

I have been in some sort of crisis after my partner of 10 years broke up with me 2 months ago and turned my life upside down.

The DPDR has since been 24/7 and i just can't seem to ignore it. I have a lot of stress and anxiety and the moment which will continue for some time as me and my ex need to sort everything out with selling our house and I just got a new apartment which i need to take care of.

I am living in the Netherlands since 13 years and my parents live in Germany... I lost my save space with my ex partner and don't know where I belong... I will stay in the Netherlands as i have my job there and my friends and hobbys.

My symptoms are

Dont feel real
Dont feel attached to my body
Can't concentrate
Cant remember things without having to think really hard
Cant recognize myself in the mirror or in pictures
Time conception really out of place
Questioning if thigs are even real (though i know they must be)
Feeling like inna dream
Dont feel like talking as I don't know what to say

I have to go back to the Netherlands and to my job on the 9th of January and i really don't know how to it... I feel so out of it and can't handle it.

I am starting therapy on the 3rd and will also consider taking AD to control my anxiety as I hope this is the major trigger for my DPDR

Hoping to snap out of it soon as I did before...
Trying not to think about it too much but if you feel it 24/7 its hard...

When you sad "Trying not to think about it too much but if you feel it 24/7 its hard..." i completely related to it. I also had dp/dr when younger (9 years ago) and have had a relapse this year. By what you sad the cause of your dp/dr is completely clear (you break with your partner) so i think that the therapy will really help you. The only advice that i can give to you is TIME our briain some way after some time get used to this estate and come back to function (at least this is what happend to me I am complety depersonalized right but still can function as a "normal person"). I really wish that you and everybody in this forum will get over it

 

[Sunnyzara]

Thank you! I hope so too.
I forgot to mention i was put on ambien by my doctor as I was unable to sleep. Took it for 4 weeks on low dosage but wonder if it triggered the DPDR. Was trying to stop last week and made it to 4 nights on low sleep (Tuesday 3 hours) and took it again last night as i was freaking out on not sleeping as this makes the DPDR worse...

 

[Samzone]

I’m on my second stretch too and from what i can gather in your story, you are going trough a rough patch in your life right now. Its perfectly normal and reasonable for you to be anxious due to that, and sadly dp/dr comes with the anxiety for people like us. I’m sure when you start to settle down and start this new chapter in your life, your anxiety will decrease and the dpdr will vanish with it.

My advice(which applies to myself too) is to try and be optimistic. You beat this shit before and you can do it again. Also, do not shy away from doing the things you love, even if you dont feel like it. I assure you that you are functional despite of this state. The thing that got me out the first time was actually starting my education at a new school. I absolutely dreaded the first day but I quickly realized that I could do my studies just fine, despite feeling like a withering houseplant . I was healed about a week after. I think work will give you confidence and prove you are functional, which lower the anxiety and also helps keep you in the pressent and out of your head.

I personally would try to not get into meds, but that is just because i am anti-meds in general. I wouldn't risk becoming dependent on medication for something that can be handled naturally.

 

[Dutchhighlander]

Don't take any AD yet. I wish I hadn't. Consider to take a supplement like GABA for anxiety and other natural products (anxiety/sleep).
Try to get help in Germany. The Netherlands knows to many strict rules.