I'd be interested in hearing how do you separate DP symptoms from DR symptoms? I mean what do you consider to be DP and what DR? Do you have both at the same time or are you experiencing only one of them?
I experienced a visual distortion (that "icy wall" through which everything seemed surrealistic) for about 2 months before it started to fade away, and I already thought the whole DP/DR thing was all over..but what remained is this really freakish "brain fog". It's really hard to explain, but I'll give it a shot. I can totally feel everything that surrounds me, but what I still can not feel, is my Self..a terrifying state, where I just can't reach that normal feeling of my Self and can't recognize myself anymore, like total loss of identity..well, brain fog is actually a perfect way to put it. I just don't feel my Self as I used to do (before this whole thing started), and that is causing me massive anxiety. I think those kind of feelings sound a bit like DP, but can you have DP without the icy surrealistic wall (is that considered to be DR?)? I know how stupid this sounds...but does anybody relate?
For the first time Im really getting desperate and hopeless about the future..as somebody else said, I pray to get my life back one day, this existence just isn't enough and I don't know how long I can take it. With the icy wall I at least knew what I had and that it had been beatable by others as well, now Im so afraid of everything..both life and death.
But some good news as well, yesterday was my first CBT session, and I feel optimistic about my therapist and our upcoming sessions. and she seemed to be rather well-educated about DP as well..
I experienced a visual distortion (that "icy wall" through which everything seemed surrealistic) for about 2 months before it started to fade away, and I already thought the whole DP/DR thing was all over..but what remained is this really freakish "brain fog". It's really hard to explain, but I'll give it a shot. I can totally feel everything that surrounds me, but what I still can not feel, is my Self..a terrifying state, where I just can't reach that normal feeling of my Self and can't recognize myself anymore, like total loss of identity..well, brain fog is actually a perfect way to put it. I just don't feel my Self as I used to do (before this whole thing started), and that is causing me massive anxiety. I think those kind of feelings sound a bit like DP, but can you have DP without the icy surrealistic wall (is that considered to be DR?)? I know how stupid this sounds...but does anybody relate?
For the first time Im really getting desperate and hopeless about the future..as somebody else said, I pray to get my life back one day, this existence just isn't enough and I don't know how long I can take it. With the icy wall I at least knew what I had and that it had been beatable by others as well, now Im so afraid of everything..both life and death.
But some good news as well, yesterday was my first CBT session, and I feel optimistic about my therapist and our upcoming sessions. and she seemed to be rather well-educated about DP as well..
