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My dp didn’t occurred because of marijuana. I have smoked so many time in my life and i was loving it. Always been a lover of life, someone without fear, travelling, having loads of friends and lovers. Have been dealing with anxiety when i was a kid but succed in beating it to became someone confident. But after coming back of a 1 year trip in asia i started working and studying at the same time in a stressful job of barman in a big restaurant and the studies were pretty intense. I started feeling a bit different a bit less me, when i was talking to people i was feeling like i was always looking for an anwers it wasn’t going out fluently. Everything became more stressful and i started to have palpitation, my heart was beating really fast all the time for a week and i had big difficulties to sleep and was really stress about it because i needed to be in shape to study and work. One night my hearth was beating so fast i went to the toilet and had my first experience of dissociation, after that stress was still there but my palpitations stop and my sleeping started to change to became really bad without the feeling of rest when you wake up like you don’t really fall asleep but just have a moment of intense dream and then you wake up without the feeling of waking up just continue to live without the pause of sleeping. My life became more hard to live i couldn’t handle working and studying at the same time so i stop working things got a bit better but the sleeping stay bad and after a while i started to depersonalize and things started to be really scary it became dépersonnalization 24/7. So my dépersonnalization was gradual before it became chronic and i was wondering if other people experience the same way of becaming depersonalize and if people recovered from it.