[Allieee07]

I feel much better and no longer have the depersonalization. It’s like I can’t get it out of my head completely. I feel some emotions and feel closer to being myself but I just want it all to go away. I had a baby and lost a bunch of weight from the depersonalization and muscle mass and I am reminded of the disorder every time I look in the mirror. Anyone else have similar situation and did you completely recover? I just think what if I am not real?

 

[Al_pk]

yes I am having a lot of problems being in my head and the afterburn effects of dpdr have been worse than the thing itself, existential thoughts and ruminations... just damn near constant. However I did recover from dpdr a few years ago, I felt strung out for a while but eventually looked and felt like myself again as I was able to do more and more. Maybe it's time to go to the gym? I started up a month ago which has given me an old sense of satisfaction even though I'm still very much locked in my head, and I'm starting to look better

 

[Allieee07]

Yes thank you for info! Makes me feel better. I go to the gym and am always running around! Just hoping there comes a day where I can completely live in the present and forget about it. I have zero aniexty about it. I mean it’s like you go all your life never having an issue and then bam! lol

 

[Al_pk]

oh then that's gonna really help in the long term. The biggest problem with dpdr is there is no moment where it all pops back into clarity, but there is a moment down the line where you're just doing stuff and realise it's gone. And you're getting emotions too which is fantastic and will eventually override it all

 

[mkeshish]

Exact same boat as you. But if it helps, this is my third bout and I’ve come out of it each time. This time has lasted longer bc of other factors (postpartum issues) but what needed to happen for me was getting my anxiety under control (for me I needed meds but other ways work for people!) and then you need to honestly do your best to live in the moment. Eventually you go through a day without the thoughts. Then it does longer and longer and eventually you can move on. I promise. I thought it would never allow me to be the old me but I was. DM if you wanna chat xxx

 

[PerfectFifth]

I just think what if I am not real?

It can't be proven that reality is objective (i.e the same for everyone, and everyone else has consciousness like you), but so what? There is no evidence to the contrary, and so there is no reason to think that reality isn't objective. Even in the very, very unlikely scenario that it wasn't, how would that change your life at all? It wouldn't. The nature of this reality is of no importance to you because you couldn't do anything about it even if you had the knowledge.

It's like asking "are there invisible, intangible unicorns flying around in the atmosphere?" Whether yes or no, it has no bearing on your life.

 

[Phantasm]

I know I don't need to say to anyone here that we can become scared of our own thoughts and feelings, but maybe the thing is to keep reminding ourselves that thoughts and feelings cannot actually harm us and never have, so even if we question these deep subjects we know and understand it is just a thought, then maybe dismiss it and turn our attention to just normal living, doing ordinary things, even if it doesn't feel normal to begin with.

I was thinking about this today.