[laserdog]

alrite people..

quick question....

with this DP everyone questions life, death existance...blah blah....only this time i seem to be questioning people more....i.e the links between mental and physical and how they interact....i feel so much in my head and in a mental state that my physical side feels secondary....which in turn means i look at other people and question them in my head..."like why dont they feel the same as me"

in the end i feel like i have lost myself....

does that make sense...i dont really have a problem with my surroundings, just people including myself...

Questioning everything 24/7 does my head in! is my worst symptom with this because half the questions have no answers....but to be fair i dont want to know the answers...just want to go back to being in the dark and living life in body and mind!

i feel alot better in the last few days....the experience of feeling like i'm going to disappear, has now gone...i feel more alive, to some extent more confident then ever, just the feeling of it not being me is weird....

i have stopped myself fron CONSTANTLY running through my symptoms in my head...and obbsessing about this state...and it has helped alot.....

Finding this site has been a massive lifeline for me....basically i dont feel alone, may sound harsh but its nice to know i'm not the only one!!

stopping yourself obsessing about this DP/DR is maybe the way forward....accept what it is and maybe give yourself a break from reading about it thats what i've done and it seems to be working....

Janine ....i know you are now DP free!! however do you not find helping on this board and theoretically re living how you used to feel, makes you boarder on returning DP!! when i get DP free, i'm gonna do my best to never think or look at anything DP...coz it might trigga them thoughts back!...

cheers ppl

 

[Guest]

I've been free of the symptoms for years - but I absolutely understand your point - I never imagined I could come this close to the "edge" without falling in again...but it's just totally different from this vantage point. The thougthts/fears for ME that invoked my DP and overall symptoms (anxiety, obsessiveness, etc.) were so specific and took such a long time to unravel that once I did, they're just gone...over and done with. DP does not feel like it's remotely close by. It's from another time.

Also, remember, I'm still obsessive, lol..and psychoanalysis is my field - so I'm not just the average "recovered person" who wants to get well and move on. To me, "moving on" is still doing this, lol...because the field of psych is my favorite area of exploration. I'm a unique duck in that one.

Plus, I love writing about this stuff. That's another itch that gets scratched for me - probably after years of NOBODY understanding me, suddenly here I can write to the folks who DO understand. Must satisfy a very old need for me.

But for most people, I agree totally - get well and move AWAY from the mental health area, unless you just love the field as its own area of academic/intellectual speciality.

Peace,
J

 

[laserdog]

cheers for the reply janine....

does anyone know how common DP is...? just i've been to the docs twice with this....b4 finding this site, and he neva suggested anything along the lines of dp... i thought it would be quite common...

 

[bat]

no gp has mentioned the word dp and the one psychiatric nurse i mentioned it to had to look it up on the net. the doc used the word dissociation and may have known of dp if i'd said the word. in my experience i've nver met anyone or heard of dp in conversations, tv or radio. i'm sure if i hadn't suffered it i would still be unaware that the condition exists. as it is it took me 4-5 years after the initial episode to find a paragraph that described how i felt and gave it a name. from there i could look it up.

 

[mcsiegs]

I agree - I never heard anyone bringing up DP/DR ever in my life. It took me typing in my symptoms on yahoo to even find that the condition had a name. After that, I became obsessed with researching the conditions, as well as prevalence.

I look at it this way - this board has about 800 registered users. If you think about all the poor people in the world who do not have access to mental care, health care, and/or a computer, there has to be many more people out there that suffer from this, but have no outlet and probably think they are alone.

I am trying not to obsess about how many people have this, and how "weird" I am to have it when billions of people don't. My comfort is in knowing that it is not only me. If this forum had twenty, ten, shit, even two people, I would still visit it and provide my support.

I also look at it this way - as humans, we can only comprehend our own suffering. Someone who has cancer (of which a HUGE amount of people have) probably thinks that their strain and condition is unique, and nobody else "can feel like this". That is never the case.

I would rather have DP/DR than cancer anyday.

What we have is definitely an illness, but it's hope that keeps us alive and going. People have remission from cancer...People have beat DP. Keep the faith!