[Depersonalized]

I have noticed that the strongest DP symptoms that I get is usually when I get up, then it gets better as I go through the day.

Sometimes I feel just normal, maybe a bit depressed, but without major DP/DR , but still there are some wierd thoughts running in the background. I try to block them, it helps, but it's really hard to do. If I go with those thoughts(I mean if I just let them take over me) it feels a hell of a lot worse.

*...why am I... why do I exist... I exist because I think.. why do I think, I think because I exist... why do I think, why I never worried about this before... etc*
Thats usually how it starts, except it all happens in about 1-2 seconds and usually causes anxiety or a panic attack.
Those thoughts seem to feel so real, like something I did not notice before and just found it. They make me feel like I really do lose my mind.

I was wondering if anyone else had something like that.

thanks

 

[Guest]

I don't have thoughts like that, but I do have obsessive existential thought patterns, especially if I'm not concentrating on something else.

 

[Guest]

Eh, I get those feelings in some short amount of time also. But my DP is dying down latetly, well I appease it I mean, so I don't get those thoughts often much at all. But it is a quite the fancy feeling of knowing things don't really exist, isn't it?

 

[Depersonalized]

Musashi
To me this is like being too sane, so sane that my mind can't handle it. Worst of all it makes me feel like its the truth, and the previous joy of life was just an illusion.

 

[Guest]

I get those exact same questions. They then get deeper and deeper.

Dont dwell on it. Tell yourself its just DP/DR and is not permanent.
The more you dwell on it and analise it and try to find an answer, the worse it will get.

I suffer DP/DR 24/7 unless I am absorbed in something which requires my full attention. Its just anxiety, your brain trying to protect you from stress by tuning out.

I know it is hard to ignore. But this is the advice I have been given on numerous occasions, from people who have recovered. I must admit there are times when I find it impossible to ignore. But I am practising

 

[Guest]

Musashi
To me this is like being too sane, so sane that my mind can't handle it. Worst of all it makes me feel like its the truth, and the previous joy of life was just an illusion.

Yup, sounds about right. Good thing it only lasts so long, eh.

 

[Guest]

Musashi
To me this is like being too sane, so sane that my mind can't handle it. Worst of all it makes me feel like its the truth, and the previous joy of life was just an illusion.

The above quote explains very good the way I feel and think. I suffer mainly from DR, but I guess I have also a tiny bit of DP in me.

By the way, my DR symptoms are much better, almost gone, after sleep, and then just gets worse after 1-2 hours.

 

[Isobel]

I feel the same as depersonalised

I think sometimes that this is 'how it should be', and the good period before all this awfulness was wrong or something

i used to have a clear pattern of how my life has been before this dp
then i feel all confused as to which parts were dp and which wernet
:roll:

i feel like this is never going to get better, and its getting harder to explain it all theres so much stuff to get out

I also feel it is bad after just getting up

they do say its the opposite of insanity , like being too sane, but it sure doesnt feel like it