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Hi everyone,

I only just came across this forum yesterday and I thought it would be a good idea to share my experience with you all.

About 10 years ago when I was 14, I was at my friends place playing a board game when suddenly without doing anything, my vision went all starry, like when you stand up too quickly, and as it came back I realised my perspective of the world wasn't the same and I started freaking out.

The first 3 months was living hell as I had no idea what was going on with me, no doctor could figure it out and I got every blood test and psych therapy under the sun.
The rest of the year was just learning to deal with it.

After about 2 years I never really noticed it unless I thought about it, I just learned to accept that this was who I am now.
10 years later, It more or less doesn't concern me very much at all now, I live a normal healthy happy life, although my mood is always flat, and I generally never get enthusiastic about anything.

I don't recall ever having a traumatic experience as a child to trigger the DP, it just sort of randomly came along.
I guess one thing I can think of was accidentally killing my pet mouse which greatly upset me.

Perhaps my persistent porn addiction ever since I was 13 to now was a contributing factor.

Anyway, I hope to read more of your stories.
 

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Sore for your suffering, have you ever tried any medications, if so which ones? are you opening to?

What about talk therapy?

Anhedonia - 'Everything feels flat" - look it up.
 

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Yeah I've been on Citalopram, Pristiq and I'm currently seeing a psychologist for an unrelated reason but he is well aware of DP/DR and wants to tackle my DP/DR.
I more or less have DR than I do DP as my hands feel like my own and my reflection feels like my own, but my sight feels abnormal, like I should be viewing it through a screen rather than from my eyes, and the world feels flat and full of energy. Putting on glasses helps as it reiterates that feeling of having a TV frame around my eyes.
 
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