The meditation was the catalyst for the DP this time but scanning my memory I have had these feelings in the past when I was younger. Probably the first time was when I was eight but never this bad.
Vipassana is a quite an intense bout of mediation. No talking for 10 days. Get up at 4am and pretty much meditate for most of the day until 9pm. In my fragile state I should not have done it, but then anything around that time may have triggered it. I don't meditate anymore and I don't think I ever will again as it just might bring on the DP (also note that I'm not a follower of any eastern religions or philosophies, I did the retreat for other reasons). Actually during the retreat I remember deeply meditating when I got this horrible fear that came from no where and I think from that point on was when I couldn't function anymore. I left the next day. I also believe that the lack of sleep during the retreat and my insomnia played a huge part in bringing on the DP and I'm also convinced that sleep state has something to do with the symptoms I'm feeling.
Sojourner I'm an ex-Catholic and I use to pray when I was younger. I really don't see the point to it because nothing ever came from it. I'm jealous of those that have a strong faith as it gives them confidence and security but I'm to much of a sceptic to believe in prayer. I'm more of an agnostic these days and I really don't believe anyone knows what happens after death. I'm pretty sure it will be silent nothingness, but no one really knows. I still attend church as I enjoy the community spirit and listening to the 'word' albeit after it goes through my sceptic filter. Things like morality and ethics I tend to listen to. As for the body and blood, well if it works for you, great, for me it's still only bread and water. Please enjoy your faith if you have one during the times when this disorder seems unbearable as for me I'll keep trying to distract myself.
Vipassana is a quite an intense bout of mediation. No talking for 10 days. Get up at 4am and pretty much meditate for most of the day until 9pm. In my fragile state I should not have done it, but then anything around that time may have triggered it. I don't meditate anymore and I don't think I ever will again as it just might bring on the DP (also note that I'm not a follower of any eastern religions or philosophies, I did the retreat for other reasons). Actually during the retreat I remember deeply meditating when I got this horrible fear that came from no where and I think from that point on was when I couldn't function anymore. I left the next day. I also believe that the lack of sleep during the retreat and my insomnia played a huge part in bringing on the DP and I'm also convinced that sleep state has something to do with the symptoms I'm feeling.
Sojourner I'm an ex-Catholic and I use to pray when I was younger. I really don't see the point to it because nothing ever came from it. I'm jealous of those that have a strong faith as it gives them confidence and security but I'm to much of a sceptic to believe in prayer. I'm more of an agnostic these days and I really don't believe anyone knows what happens after death. I'm pretty sure it will be silent nothingness, but no one really knows. I still attend church as I enjoy the community spirit and listening to the 'word' albeit after it goes through my sceptic filter. Things like morality and ethics I tend to listen to. As for the body and blood, well if it works for you, great, for me it's still only bread and water. Please enjoy your faith if you have one during the times when this disorder seems unbearable as for me I'll keep trying to distract myself.
