Prepare to embark on my journey like so many of you have experienced. I am a 19 year old boy who has recently withdrawn from college. While being far away from home I was not happy at all. My anxiety was atrocious and I had trouble talking to new people. This is only a recent phenom because in the past I was able to spark a conversation with anyone. Anyway I was down there had a massive panic attack, and smoked weed later that night. Woke up the next morning thinking I had schizophrenia and researched the topic for literally a week straight. I could no longer sit in massive lecture halls and take all the information in because I was unable to focus and too darn worried about how I thought I had lost my mind. Fast forward a month and I finally return home. Well at least what I know to be my home but I dont feel it. My parents are foreign to me and all my friends just look different. I have no idea how to talk to people anymore and my thought process is totally askew. I'm just looking for reassurance that there will be improvements because it has been nearly 3 months and I have considered taking the easy way out but will not. My cognitive abilities are horrendous and I cant even think about what to say to my girlfriend anymore. I'm really desperate here and probably sound like a little baby since most of you have been suffering with it a lot longer than me but just understand that I need some guidance. My parents have no clue what the heck I am talking about. I am seeing a therapist but they just prescribe me medicine. I am on 150 mg of sertraline. I apologize for my poor grammar and repetitiveness. Just sitting at my desk praying to the Lord above we all get out of this some day.