[Brainsilence02]

I don't want to cause misconception and hostility, but I need to know if other have this same thing with me.

I remember that when I first noticed it (around 2000, 2001) it was while returnng home, after a night-walk. I noticed that I wasn't feeling "here", like some part of my mind was really really tired. I didn't mind. In fact it was a pleasant state. Like a break from the things that bugged me.

I don't know what does this mean for me. Did anyone had this?

 

[Guest]

I can understand how a pleasant dreamlike state could be an enjoyable experience - I think maybe DP is unpleasant as we know it is trying to defend us from something.

 

[mcsiegs]

If it isn't unpleasant, it isn't DP

 

[Brainsilence02]

If it isn't unpleasant, it isn't DP

Right now it is, but back then it wasnt. It was happening periodically. After a while I started to wonder what could it be. In a gradient way, it bacame 24/7. And right now, my mind toggles between the state of "I am not sure of anything in my memory" and "I remember good the facts back then"

 

[mcsiegs]

I am sorry if I came across in a negative way. I hope that you are doing well, and anybody that makes peace with this disorder should be held in high regard.

God bless, my friend

 

[Brainsilence02]

No problem mcsiegs, I didn't though it was "negetive"

 

[Sunshine Spirit]

I sometimes experience the same as you've described, Brainsilence. I find it usually happens when I haven't slept for thirty hours or more. I think it seems pleasant because I know it's come on naturally, and I recognise it from the years before I suffered from Dp/Dr. It's also nice and calming to know I'm absolutely shattered and am about to enjoy a good, long, peaceful sleep.

Many years ago, before I realised I had Dp/Dr, I learnt how to have controlled OOBEs, which is also pleasant, to say the least. Even though the experience is different to Dp/Dr, it can be quite scary if it's an uncontrolled one. Sometimes they happen when I'm exhausted and trying to get off to sleep, or if I've had a drink, etc..

Also, sometimes I feel totally relaxed, happy and peaceful, when I least expect it or need it. It's exactly the same as I would feel after taking a large dose of Diazepam. Obviously, it's a chemical my brain has released, but I AM curious to know what that chemical's called, should anyone reading this know...?

 

[Da'Burgh]

It's just scary sometimes to me. A few of my friends are like "Damn dude, I wish I felt like I was in a mild trip all the time..." and I'm like no it gets old quick...

 

[Da'Burgh]

Plus it's not even like that most of the time... many times I just feel like I'm disappearing or something and I feel like my memory is diminishing.

 

[Guest]

haha, it feels so ironic now. i was looking for a high and now i'm stuck in one.

 

[Da'Burgh]

Yeah, no shit. But like they say, good things come out from bad things. I no longer smoke marijuana, drink alcohol, use any other drugs (which cover many) smoke cigarettes, or even drink caffeine. This is surely an invitation to good health. After DP/DR, I'll be free.

 

[Guest]

so pleasant it's better than chocolate or sex :roll:

sorry i'm having a rotten day,nothing pleasant to report here

 

[Guest]

mah therapist said dp is like the brains way of escaping ur troubles, its trying to run away from anything stressful, when i used to have dp sometimes i used to laugh when i had my episodes and just enjoy the "trippiness"

 

[mcsiegs]

Da'Burgh - I know what you mean...I have given up on many of those things myself. I never smoked weed, but have given up on my true love of coffee (caffeine). I miss being able to drink it, but the caffeine rush is too scary for me.

I also would never judge anyone who smokes pot.

Although I don't know any of you, you are all my friends.

 

[Da'Burgh]

Thanks a lot, mcsiegs. Smoking herb was like the first thing I knew I had to quit because It would always lead to a panic attack. I mean, give someone who thinks too much something that makes them think deeper and you have utter fear. Some might disagree with me on this but when I got high it was too much for my anxious brain.

Second, I put caffeine and highly sugared products in the same boat. I love sugars, especially pop. Caffeine just made this experience 10x worse. I eventually had to quit smoking cigs too because they were also a stimulant and made things worse. These things are only setbacks. I would do anything to get rid of this crap.