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I am really beginning to think that DP/DR IS in fact a defense mechanism.. at least for some of us. Over the past week and a half, I've practicing Janine's "outward" technique and accepting DP/DR. I actually told myself that if I have to live with it, then fine. 2 days ago, my DP/DR lifted. It's been great. However, as soon as it did, I started being flooded with worried I had before this whole thing kicked in. I started realizing yet again how much I hate my job, how my life is far from what I want it to be etc. It felt like I was having a total nervous breakdown.

In a way (and I say it with trepidation since I know that DP/DR can return very soon), it was easier dealing with one thing: DP/DR than dealing with life. Maybe what I need to do is improve my life first and deal with the symptoms that got me here in the first point.

Sorry for the rambling but had to get it off my chest....
 
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Yeah, my life is sucking whale balls right now, and I need to get my shit together if i'm going to find any success with my head. I can just continue to screw up relationships/school/work/etc and expect to come out of dp dr. I'm mentally training and giving myself internal peptalks, but without this whole "life" thing working out for me, i won't get anywhere.
 
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See I feel the same way. Unless I get my life together and deal with what upsets me, I'll always crawl back into the DP/DR cave. But then maybe DP/DR was what I needed to show me just how messed up things were in the first place. How everything about me and my life appeared perfect on the outside but I was freaking out inside for years.
 
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Ditto. Starting college, starting over has really helped a lot. It's normally only when I go home that the anxiety comes back. So easy to fall back into old patterns of thought when in old places.
 
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The problems arise when i'm at college....and when i'm at home for that matter. not sure if i've tried living in a cave yet.
 
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