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Now that I kind of don't have DR anymore I realize that Dr/Dp is a very serious illness.

I think it is even more limiting than major depression. Don't know really, but it is as least as bad as a serious physical injury for example.

I just find it is incredibly limiting and all folks going through it without giving up are heros.
 

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I would say it is far more limiting than a serious physical injury! I can't think of anything I'd rather have less than this.

At least with a physical injury you know the exact consequences. With something like DP/DR, you can never know! I find that scary, personally. I feel like even if I was ACTUALLY better, I would still be asking myself "do I feel normal now?" I wonder if enjoyment post-DP/DR will feel the same as enjoyment pre-DP/DR.

In the same light, this experience is much more scarring than any physical illness. I really don't know how I'm going to be able to get over this and forgive myself for getting into this mess. Even if I had cancer for a number of years and became depressed during that time, I don't think I would ever say "wow is my brain messed up" like I do every 5 seconds nowadays.

As sad as it sounds, I would trade my next 50-60 years with potential DP/DR for a few years of normality :(
 

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I feel like even if I was ACTUALLY better, I would still be asking myself "do I feel normal now?" I wonder if enjoyment post-DP/DR will feel the same as enjoyment pre-DP/DR.
isnt the whole thought of this scarey, the thought of asking ourselves how we feel all the time for the rest of our lives........

....i am with you all the way magneto...i'd rather have a good few years dp/dr free than live the next god knows how many years like this.

Lets hope we can all get on and live a "normal" life when this is over....and leave this in the past...where it will belong
 
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In the past... In the past...

Who uses the term "folks"??? I can hear that chick in One flew over the cuckoo's saying "fellow's" now...

It's hard to be the "same" after it, because the experience itself is SO analytical that it stretches your head into a deep place.

And... the pacifist/maturity stuff will leave you a bit "behind" the other steady stream people you know...
It's existentialist... who can STRETCH THEIR HEAD BACK, after it's been stretched into SPACE???
Your new found tolerances and depths wont FIT into the original "model" everyone will be somewhat BELOW you in evolution once you get back into your skin.
After such a deep head stretch, you'll see people around you as pedantic and pathetic, you'll see their SLACKNESS of will, and impulsivity... and probably slip back into DP/DR...
*sad*...

It's like Psychotic = escape from reality... Which is what us AUTISTICS get thrown at us...
And dissociative disorders are existentialist, where reality is heightened and sense of self is heightened... Dunno where it correlates... but DP/DR seems an "inside job" whereas Psychosis is like... No awareness of reality OR self??? No clue, no clue... cos, THAT MAKES HALF MY FAMILI MEMBERS PSYCHOS, therefore.
 

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hey, I'm a hick that uses words like yall and yanto (want to) :D But I like that I have made up words in my vocab. You should hear my daugher. Now that's funny :lol:

I agree with everyone. DP is so uncontroble and there is no meds for it yet. I would rather have something that they can cure or at least something that I know how to control. DP is so a pain in the neck. It makes it hard to do anything and when I get upset it seems to make it like 10 times worse. I wish it would just go away one morning when I wake up. That would be nice. :roll: But I don't see that happening any time soon. So life goes on.........
 
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hey, I'm a hick that uses words like yall and yanto (want to) But I like that I have made up words in my vocab. You should hear my daugher. Now that's funny

I agree with everyone. DP is so uncontroble and there is no meds for it yet. I would rather have something that they can cure or at least something that I know how to control. DP is so a pain in the neck. It makes it hard to do anything and when I get upset it seems to make it like 10 times worse. I wish it would just go away one morning when I wake up. That would be nice. But I don't see that happening any time soon. So life goes on.........
"FEAR" meds...

Gimme some... FEAR MEDS... now.

Oh Lord... Kill my fear.
 
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not to sound studpid, but what are "Fear Meds"? :?
studpid... I sound stupid ALL THE TIME... everyone ALWAYS treats me like retard...

NO-ONE'S as stupid as me...

:(

"Fear meds" = can they PLEASE make PSYCHIATRIC drugs to kill fear... They'd kill mental illness in one swoop.
Fear is what makes you deteriorate... giving in to fear... you crash. It's a POTENT PULSE... A strong, confusing energy.

If Psych drugs, for SCHIZOPHRENIA, OR CATATONIC DEPRESSION, were all the one drug... A "fear beta blocka" then mental illness would be quite well managed... Distraction techniques, meditation, POT SMOKING etc etc etc can all be ways to BLOCK OUT FEAR... When "Tidal" etc post here, alleviation of fear is at the core of alleviating anxiety. When I get overwhelmed, I throw myself into OTHER PEOPLES PROBLEMS, it blocks out fear, I dont know y.
If ECT, lobotamy, Anti-psychotics or Anti-depressants go ANY WAY CLOSE to diminishing my fear... then my "cognitive scramble" will be SO MUCH HEALTHIER... The first line of action I employ AT PRESENT, is to "regress" to a childlike state (in real life), it makes people back off in horror... It surprises them.

If all else fails, I'd like to get the "Psychopathy" drug... to block out my conscience... Sociopaths DONT REALLY have "Anxiety" disorders...
I'll remove my fear my removing my moral conscience... anything to STOP FEELING.
I hate "feeling" now... I'm burnt out. :(
 
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