So, I'm still intrigued with the idea of dp being a type of psychosis. For me, I've been moderately "normal" for over a year, but over the last few weeks, I've become quite dp'd.
Basically, I feel like I'm inside a wheel, and when I'm "normal" the wheel keeps me right side up, but over the past few weeks, the wheel has slowly been turning, and now I'm about 90 degrees to the right, but still trying to see the world as I did from the upright position. Now, this is not the part I question as psychosis.
When I get in this state, I see things as different from what they are. For example, there is a display at my work, and every time I see it, I perceive that it is a girl with long blond hair in a pink shirt leaning over the counter, when in fact it looks NOTHING like this, and there is not even anything pink on it. There is also a box in a room I pass in my hallway every night, and I see this box as a person in a striped shirt, and every time I see it, I jump, and I run past the room, even though I KNOW it is just a box.
Point is, despite the fact that I know that these things are not what they appear, they still appear as such, and are an extreme distortion of reality. I have also had severe problems with seeing faces everywhere, in everything, like 20-30 faces a day in clouds, doors, ceilings, fabric, etc etc etc. I don't believe these faces are actual beings, they have never spoken to me, I recognize that they don't actually exist. But that doesn't change the fact that a) they bug the hell out of me and b)I am seeing faces everywhere. I don't know that you could exactly call that "not psychosis." Thank you for your time.
Basically, I feel like I'm inside a wheel, and when I'm "normal" the wheel keeps me right side up, but over the past few weeks, the wheel has slowly been turning, and now I'm about 90 degrees to the right, but still trying to see the world as I did from the upright position. Now, this is not the part I question as psychosis.
When I get in this state, I see things as different from what they are. For example, there is a display at my work, and every time I see it, I perceive that it is a girl with long blond hair in a pink shirt leaning over the counter, when in fact it looks NOTHING like this, and there is not even anything pink on it. There is also a box in a room I pass in my hallway every night, and I see this box as a person in a striped shirt, and every time I see it, I jump, and I run past the room, even though I KNOW it is just a box.
Point is, despite the fact that I know that these things are not what they appear, they still appear as such, and are an extreme distortion of reality. I have also had severe problems with seeing faces everywhere, in everything, like 20-30 faces a day in clouds, doors, ceilings, fabric, etc etc etc. I don't believe these faces are actual beings, they have never spoken to me, I recognize that they don't actually exist. But that doesn't change the fact that a) they bug the hell out of me and b)I am seeing faces everywhere. I don't know that you could exactly call that "not psychosis." Thank you for your time.
