it's so hard. everyday is empty... everyday i think about what should i do... how can i recover. Feeling non human. Feeling disconnected. Feeling pain... it's so hard. Im feeling bad self esteem. And confidence. I can't watch them in the eyes. Because i feel so disconnected to myself. I'm just seeing emptiness. I want so much feel like human. I want it so much! what it was feel happy? full? what it was smile? what it was feel other human near you? what it was to have conversation? how it felt to hug someone?