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So I posted on here about 5 years ago when I struggled with DP for the first time. It lasted about a year and 6 months and it was pretty much 24/7. After returning to work and forcing myself back into life, DP got to a point where I would go weeks without even thinking about it. After "recovering" I lived a pretty eventful life. I moved cross country, got a degree and worked a few different jobs. Fast forward to this year, I moved back to my hometown area and decided to make a career change from music producer to EMT. During my training, I noticed my DP creeping back in, but I just equated it to the stress of learning how to be a medical professional. Now I am working almost full time on the ambulance and my DP is back in full swing. I love my job but I can't stand the fact that it brought this feeling back. I also noticed that it got a little worse after traveling a few times, but I can equate the stress of my job for 90% of the reason DP came back. My main concern is that this time around it feels different, even though I know its the same disorder. Has anyone else had DP come back and it still feels just as horrible as the first time? I always thought if it ever came back I wouldn't be phased but I guess not. Do I ride this out and see if I can tackle it again while dealing with the stressors at work? Or I throw in the towel and reduce my exposure to stress?
My current symptoms:
-blank mind
-health anxiety
- occasional rumination
So I posted on here about 5 years ago when I struggled with DP for the first time. It lasted about a year and 6 months and it was pretty much 24/7. After returning to work and forcing myself back into life, DP got to a point where I would go weeks without even thinking about it. After "recovering" I lived a pretty eventful life. I moved cross country, got a degree and worked a few different jobs. Fast forward to this year, I moved back to my hometown area and decided to make a career change from music producer to EMT. During my training, I noticed my DP creeping back in, but I just equated it to the stress of learning how to be a medical professional. Now I am working almost full time on the ambulance and my DP is back in full swing. I love my job but I can't stand the fact that it brought this feeling back. I also noticed that it got a little worse after traveling a few times, but I can equate the stress of my job for 90% of the reason DP came back. My main concern is that this time around it feels different, even though I know its the same disorder. Has anyone else had DP come back and it still feels just as horrible as the first time? I always thought if it ever came back I wouldn't be phased but I guess not. Do I ride this out and see if I can tackle it again while dealing with the stressors at work? Or I throw in the towel and reduce my exposure to stress?
My current symptoms:
-blank mind
-health anxiety
- feeling of a lump in my throat
- breathing seems to take more effort
- struggling with finding words
- occasional rumination