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DP as escapism

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Although my DP has been waning I still experience it with anxiety or in new situations that make me uncomfortable. I was thinking about what puts me into these states and believe it has alot to do with my specific way of thinking and background. Is it possible to get DP or experience episodes of it because of low self esteem? My thinking is basically this "I hate myself, I'll never accomplish anything" then i may experience DP. I think it may be a psychological expression of secretly wanting to not be me. Because I don't want to live as myself experiencing reality now, I disassociate. This would be like a way of eliminating a self that I'm not satisifed with or believe is unable to cope with the world. Does this make any sense?
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I just tried to disagree with this post, and formulate a criticism but instead i find myself agreeing with it.

Although i think self esteem is more of an effect than a cause, i suppose from one perspective it may be because of our self esteem that our minds wander from us in this way. To preserve ourselves we have to run away, for whatever reason, probably traumatic. Low self esteem in general might contribute to DP/R but it can equally be seen as an effect of the compromises the disorder seems to force. Or alternatively cause and effect cannot be untwined and devour and give birth to each other endlessly in a spiralling downward descent.

Well perhaps not.
There are some people here who claim their experiences started for no apparent reason (no trauma or drugs), i cant remember who.

To be honest though i have a hard time believing it (there is always the possibility of unconscious repression).
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