I have had all the core DP symptoms, all the time (with moments of exceptions) for my entire adult life. It is the way I recieve sensory information; it is the way I store and retrieve memories.
I can not remember or imagine anything in my life even remotely negative enough to cause these kinds of symptoms for this amount of time.
I have no idea what could have been so unbearable that I would have to defend myself from it in this way.
It has been in the back of my head, from the begining, that I did this to my self, putzing around with recreational drugs (mostly pot) trying to be like my friends. This was, to me, shameful, and I tried to find psychological reasons.
Until one day, thirty years later, I added THC to a list of symptoms on a google search and suddenly got all kinds of hits on DP, a syndrome I had never heard of.
It seems obvious that DP can be a defense mechanism. To me it is just as obvious that this is not all that DP is.
And I don?t mean to sound cavalier about those who have experienced things bad enough to induce this kind of dissociation; I would guess that this is the norm.
That such things happen makes one ashamed to be human. That so many emerge dedicated, no matter what, to being humane, makes one proud to be the same.
May we all be safe. May we all be healthy. May we all have mental happiness. May we all have the ease of well being. -- Metta (loving kindness) meditation.
I can not remember or imagine anything in my life even remotely negative enough to cause these kinds of symptoms for this amount of time.
I have no idea what could have been so unbearable that I would have to defend myself from it in this way.
It has been in the back of my head, from the begining, that I did this to my self, putzing around with recreational drugs (mostly pot) trying to be like my friends. This was, to me, shameful, and I tried to find psychological reasons.
Until one day, thirty years later, I added THC to a list of symptoms on a google search and suddenly got all kinds of hits on DP, a syndrome I had never heard of.
It seems obvious that DP can be a defense mechanism. To me it is just as obvious that this is not all that DP is.
And I don?t mean to sound cavalier about those who have experienced things bad enough to induce this kind of dissociation; I would guess that this is the norm.
That such things happen makes one ashamed to be human. That so many emerge dedicated, no matter what, to being humane, makes one proud to be the same.
May we all be safe. May we all be healthy. May we all have mental happiness. May we all have the ease of well being. -- Metta (loving kindness) meditation.
