[Kelson12]

Well, I haven't posted in God knows how long. Reason being, because I've been pretty much DP and depression free for a while. Sure there have been days where I've felt a little down, but no way have I felt the long term (week to two week) DP/Depression stages I had felt in the past. Well, after some back to back weekends of staying up to late and drinking a little too much, I am back down in the dumps. Tired, depressed, negative thinking, no motivation, don't care about much, etc. It sucks, but I know that I will get through it.
The one thing that makes me feel better is that I pretty much know what causes this to come on and that is lack of sleep and/or messed up sleep schedule and too much alcohol.
Though I feel better knowing what causes it, it still doesn't make things get any better any faster. I am sooooooooooooo incredibly sleepy right now. I can just feel my brain chemicals going crazy and being so messed up. My eyelids feel like they weigh a hundred pounds and are constantly trying to come crashing down over my eyes. When I nod off at work, I have really quick dream-like visions. :shock:
Again, I know this is all caused by alcohol and lack of sleep, but just wanted to vent.
But also wanted to add, I have been feeling consistenly better for the past 2 months or so. So there is hope, but there are always gonna be bumps in the road! :lol: Take care,

Kelson

 

[Guest]

Yo Kelson, that sucks that your feeling down. My question is though, if you know Alcohol causes you to feel this way, why drink? Is it really worth it? I know alcohol is a big stress reliever for most people, but for us, i just don't think its the healthiest thing to do. Man i wish i could fuckin smoke & drink my brains out, i miss those days, but i can't because if i do i will feel 10 times worse than i do right now, which is what i don't want to happen. Im never ever touching a blunt or a bit of weed ever again and i doubt that i will ever drink. Theres nothing wrong with being sober, tons of people don't drink & smoke.

But hey at least you have times of clarity & times when you feel good. I wish i had some of those.

Stay Up & holla at me on IM later

Peace

oh & btw, are u gettin the Jim Jones or the Ice City albums today?

 

[Kelson12]

I just wanted to resurrect on old post of mine. It's sad how you look back at a post from two years ago and realize now how much worse you are now. Sad.

Kelson