This is how i feel.... I feel dead.. Like realy. I cant sleep because my mind keeps me wake. If i sleep i wake up feeling so bad. Every single day. Same thing. I cant crasp anything. Im just floating here
Many times thinking suicide. Especially in mornings. I watch myself in the mirror and see a monster. Something what im not. Thoughts only keep me alive. Only thinking that everything dies and ends. Nothing lasts forever. Those help me survive. And to think that this is all i have right now.. What i gonna do about it. I can choose something. Even when i dont feel anything and feel bad i can still do things. If i knew what it is to die and if i was sure i will be fine. I probably would do suicide. Anyway i think i gonna die very soon.this just simply cannot last like this long.
Im not having what i want.. Yes its for sure. But it doesent help to complain it. I can only do that much what i have right now.
Many times thinking suicide. Especially in mornings. I watch myself in the mirror and see a monster. Something what im not. Thoughts only keep me alive. Only thinking that everything dies and ends. Nothing lasts forever. Those help me survive. And to think that this is all i have right now.. What i gonna do about it. I can choose something. Even when i dont feel anything and feel bad i can still do things. If i knew what it is to die and if i was sure i will be fine. I probably would do suicide. Anyway i think i gonna die very soon.this just simply cannot last like this long.
Im not having what i want.. Yes its for sure. But it doesent help to complain it. I can only do that much what i have right now.
