[Magneto]

I posted something similar to this a while back, but kind of steered it away from the type of answers I had hoped for. Here goes.

Every symptom I have is a DP/DR symptom. Every thoughtline and paranoid idea is shared by other DP/DR sufferers.

But what does this mean for me? Or for others on this board? Supposing there truly is an illness called DP/DR (where, although we cannot see of course, the mechanisms behind the illness are similar across cases), how many of us have it? Half of us? A few of us?

The heart of my question is, am I DPed? am I something else? or am I just messed from drugs and should accept it? I want to follow Janine's advice for getting better, but don't know if it applies to me.

And please noone say "that is just your anxiety" I need something concrete to ease my mind.

On a similar note, I keep picturing a stereotypical "crackhead" you would see on the street - strung out, nervously twitching and moving, speaking slowly. Can he get better? Could he become the CEO of a powerful corporation after that? In my mind, he is likely going to feel the effects of his addiction for the rest of his life. And I feel as if I have placed myself on a similar sort of path (albeit not as dire as the crack path). Drugs CAN do permanent damage in my mind.

Peace,
Magneto

 

[dreamcatcher]

magneto.....the symptoms you have described in other posts and the paranoid thoughts you have mentioned before are all very similiar to what i am going through.......i have never taken drugs except for prescription ones......i am with you that i believe it could be more than anxiety because that word really doesnt describe the hell that we are all going through.....so maybe the drugs where the cause in your case but there are numerous causes and they all appear to have the same effects.....they are sh*t......we all hate living with it....but what else can we do???? somehow we all have to persever with our battles.....and hope that one day we will be free-i really hope that there is an end to this and we can all go back to living our lifes without all the obssesional..paranoid...analazing crap we have all been reduced to...and one day reality should return

 

[Inflammed]

Maybe DP/DR fits to all disease mainly psyhological that are not known yet...
Maybe we're all a bit crazy...
And maybe we're suffering only from street drugs abuse (my case).
The symptoms are so wide...but our descriptions are so similar.

 

[Magneto]

Inflammed, you basically summed up exactly what I was and have been trying to say. What if I am "messed" in the head, and this is to be my existence?

What if I still feel exactly the same in 6 months? One year? 5 years? Is it possible to sleep for 40 years?

Not to take anything away from those with "regular" DP/DR, but I would give anything to have it instead of chronic-drug-use-DP/DR. It just leaves that many more variables unknown, and adds in the big factor that you were a) necessarily messing with you head and b) basically did it to yourself.

Any tips on how to stop hating yourself?

 

[Inflammed]

It just leaves that many more variables unknown

Thats the big difference between drug induced DP'ers and normal DP'ers.
I know what you mean Magneto...we can never really know what's happening to ourself (body and mind) and we may never will.

As for your questions, I think YES, one can sleep for 40 years or his entire life, some are even in Neuro-vegetative states, don't forget that...

We are mainly on the edge of being either Schyzo, mentally dead, physically dead.
Our soul is only trying to escape...why are we so afraid ?